Damn, you beautiful man...Its hard to believe that those words would totally change my life and in many ways my perspective on relationships. You see, those words were from the pick up line Numbahs used on me around this time last year (hehe). At first I shrugged it off as another attempt to "cyber" on a big dick website. But after I got to know him, I realized he was totally different from anyone else I had ever met. Those of you who know Numbahs know that he has a sense of innocence and kindness like no other. When you really get to know him, he is best described as a beautiful soul and truly a "nice guy". When you get to know him as I have, you consider him a soul mate...the one you have always searched for but didn't think actually existed.
Although I wasn't looking for a relationship (especially an online one-I thought only desperate people did that), after many hours of online chats and pms, the relationship eventually bumped up to an actual phone call. I couldn't believe how nervous I was when I dialed the phone for the first time...this coming from a person who is very confident about everything he does. However, when I heard his voice for the first time, all my nervousness went away and something happened that has never happened before...I got butterflies in my stomach. Actually, it felt like a butterfly farm to be honest. Things were happening like I never expected them to....I became a teenager in love all over again.
They say that there are actual angels here on earth. I always thought that was myth, until I actually met my angel for the first time. I casually mentioned that I was going on a business trip and it would be nice to have company...thats when the real magic all started (hehe). Numbahs agreed to meet me. Prior to our actual meeting, wild thoughts filled my head...what if he is not who he says he is, what if he is a weirdo, why did I agree to this, he might be a serial killer, what if he snores (hehe)...but all those thoughts went away when I first saw the kindest and angelic (plus very handsome) face that I have ever seen. All my fears and anxiety went away the first moment we exchanged glances...and that damn butterfly farm started up again! Since that day, I have been floating on clouds and still get the butterflies.
And here it is one year later-I can't believe how fast the time has flown by nor how much my love can grow each day. I thought I knew what love was, but I guess I didn't. I didn't realize before now that love can continue to grow and is never ending. I have never known love to be so consuming...he is the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last thing on my mind before going to bed. Also, I realized that I found a best friend, a lover and someone who completes me and makes me a better person.
Yes, my perceptions on many things have changed this year and I owe it all to my angel here on earth. Its been hard not having him around all the time, but it has certainly been worth it. As many of you have shared, there have been the difficult times, but the wonderful times are far more plentiful. I look forward to each and every day when I talk to Numbahs and we share how our days are going...but I really look forward to our visits and the quality time that we spend together.
A big thank you to all those who have shared their kind words and warm sentiments. Many of you have been a great support this year and whether you know it or not, we are very appreciative for that. Numbers, gracias mi angelito for a wonderful year and I look forward to many, many more. Te amo con todo mi corazon!!
And yes Virginia, while Santa doesn't really exist, true love can be found on a big dick site.
