does it say maybe that there's just a lot of lonely man out there
This is correct. You can simply see the gender balances on dating sides. Being a woman, she can get it so easy as long as she's willing to spread herself. With men, however, it's very difficult to get a date, even after gay is mainstream and legalised. Was it because of social status? Physical body ? Endowment?
On unrelated story, but kinda related to online dating, is it my fault for asking his well-being everyday? Almost a year into chatting and long distance relationship, he suddenly ghosting me and eventually a week later, he just blocked me on all of his social media and even phone number... I was hoping to finally seeing the light at the end of my virginity's tunnel but suddenly a tremor happened and closed up the tunnel and it turns to dark again... Well...it was my first gay date with actual white guy for my 27 years... He was perfect... maybe I'm just a desperate fool believing. Is it always this hard to be gay? What if I'm getting older and I've become irrelevant after my time is up? I was ready to move into my dream home with him. I'm not into hookups because it's not meaningful. Sometimes I wish I was conscripted into some war and die a hero so that I don't have to think about the matters with my heart. It's so...complicated. Or maybe I'm just have bad luck with any relationship. Or should I become a that bad guy instead ? If I can't have him, then none shall have him at all ?