Bbucko
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I certainly hold no stigma against HIV, having several friends who are positive and watching my aunt die from AIDS related complications.
I am sorry for you loss, I truly am.
Don't be afraid to come onto my side of the fence, it seems as if you're taking a hands-off, babyish approach.
There is nothing "babyish" in attempting to separate morality and a sexually transmitted virus. It's a very pragmatic and realistic way of dealing with reality.
The husband who's deceiving his wife and spreading the disease may not be textbook "guilty" but he's clearly irresponsible and REsponsible for the spreading of the disease. It's not as easy as guilty/innocent infections, but there are people out there who are DIRECTLY spreading the disease by employing deception and poor decision-making.
Yes, there are sociopaths who care for no one but themselves and their pleasure. There are idiotic bugcatchers and "gifters" who make my skin crawl.
But 95% of the people I know live with HIV/AIDS carry two burdens of stigma: that imposed on them by society and that imposed on them by themselves. You can't change the world, but you can change yourself by eliminating the internalized stigma as much as possible.
I have several female friends I've met through AIDSmeds.com, all of whom were infected by husbands/boyfriends on the DL. To the last, they've all moved on from the circumstances surrounding their infections. Otherwise, life would have no meaning for them.
It would be very easy for me to fall back on "innocence": I was infected very early in the epidemic, certainly no later than 1983. At that point, it wasn't even called HIV (it was called HTLV-3) and no one was certain how it was transmitted.
No one attaches a moral stigma to HPV, but it's spread the same way and can lead to cervical and rectal cancer, which is deadly.
Again, I'm sorry for your loss. I stopped counting my losses at 60 (and that was in 1992).