I didn't ask this in the gay section since I felt like it might be biased there.
In my experience I wished I stayed in the closet or ignored my sexuality, then I might have saved myself and others a lot of pain. I remember prior to this becoming known to me life was simpler and navigable for me. I mean I knew guys were friends with guys (or girls sometimes) and they dated women. I mean I did date someone once but it wasn't really for me or I didn't get it at the time. But it made it easier to interact and befriend guys.
But when I began to realize that I was gay it made things harder. Socially I became awkward with other guys with unwanted thoughts about banging nearly every guy I came across or looking too long at them. I wasn't picked on for being gay but it made making friends harder and I ended up losing on a lot of potential other friends because of this due to the dynamics that resulted.
As for sex....well that's really nothing but bad memories, one good one. Still it doesn't make up for all the negatives that resulted from my foray into sex.
So now I'm looking for a way to overcome this and make live simple and navigable again, but everything I read about it comes across as some sort of Christian nonsense or that it's a sin (which I don't believe). But I can't deny that it has been a big source of trouble in my life and wonder what I can do about it.
In my experience I wished I stayed in the closet or ignored my sexuality, then I might have saved myself and others a lot of pain. I remember prior to this becoming known to me life was simpler and navigable for me. I mean I knew guys were friends with guys (or girls sometimes) and they dated women. I mean I did date someone once but it wasn't really for me or I didn't get it at the time. But it made it easier to interact and befriend guys.
But when I began to realize that I was gay it made things harder. Socially I became awkward with other guys with unwanted thoughts about banging nearly every guy I came across or looking too long at them. I wasn't picked on for being gay but it made making friends harder and I ended up losing on a lot of potential other friends because of this due to the dynamics that resulted.
As for sex....well that's really nothing but bad memories, one good one. Still it doesn't make up for all the negatives that resulted from my foray into sex.
So now I'm looking for a way to overcome this and make live simple and navigable again, but everything I read about it comes across as some sort of Christian nonsense or that it's a sin (which I don't believe). But I can't deny that it has been a big source of trouble in my life and wonder what I can do about it.