I hope I am posting this in the right forum. I have a fascination with big dicks. I joined this site a while ago and realized there is a lot of people like me (haha), some modest and some over the edge. Now I consider myself straight but, sometimes, I have urges to touch/suck a huge cock. I was thinking today why I am like this and it hit me finally. I remember how this all started and, yes, I have to tell you the story so you can understand. When I was in my early teens, I had a lot of friends in my neighborhood. One of those friends and I decided to go out to the woods (we always did) but since it was nice, we decided to swim in the creek. My friend recommended to go skinny dipping and I thought it was a good idea. When we got the the creek I got shy and we were hesitant to take our clothes off. We decided to take turns taking our clothes off by playing rock paper scissors or something. I lost so I began to take my clothes off. Luckily he did too at the same time. I jumped in the water right away but he stood on the shore freaking out because someone was riding a bike by us so I came out of the water to get my clothes. The person didn't notice so we just kinda stood there deciding what to do. As we were talking I started to get hard (no reason just natural) and I tried to get my clothes and hid it but he told me to stop because he wanted to see it. Once I was hard he told me that I was really big. He got hard too but wasn't as big as me. We just laughed about what we were doing, put our clothes back on and started to leave. As we were walking back, I asked him what he thought about my dick and if I was really big. He said, "yeah but one of my other friends is a lot bigger." Thats where it started! I wanted to see it!... never happened. I've always wanted to see one bigger since that day. Then I discovered porn.... I realized there are a shit load guys out there alot bigger than me. I had another experience with another group of friends in my neighborhood at that time. Daring each other at our houses. One of his friends came over and got naked in the bathroom and when he came out I think his dick was bigger than mine. Anyways, I think he was bi because he liked girls but one day came over and we got naked and hard and ended up daring each other to touch dicks. I think he asked to suck mine and I let him. I was supposed to suck his in return, but i thought it was gross at the time. So we just ended up just fooling on top of each other humping dicks together or something. I never talked to him after that cuz I thought he was weird. I've never done anything with a guy since then (I don't count back then because it was being young and curious about sexuality) but I always had a desire to see big dicks since that day. I love women, but sometimes I have a urge to touch and suck a huge dick. Maybe I have bi-tendencies.. I don't know... what do you guys think? Anyone have similar experiences or desires? I decided I really do want to play with one. I'm a good looking guy and I am in shape so I dont have to worry about that stuff. Can anyone give me advice on how to find a guy with a huge cock?