I’m 19 and I identify as straight. I’ve recently been going on jogs with a buddy of mine and he has very big hairy pecs. These jogs and watching his pecs bounce through his tank tops has been incredibly arousing and has made me question my attraction to men and their bodies. I looked into muscle worship porn and it made me incredibly horny but now I don’t know how to process this sexual desires and needs. Any advice?
I actually been looking for discussion on this subject for a while now as it relates to me. I have had similar erges too at a young age, however it was not 19, but since elementary school. I liked pretty girls as well as pretty boys, but for the guys, they were always on the muscular or athletic side. Either they were slim fit or built a little more, I always found myself staring at them or trying to get a peak at them. During gym class while the boys were playing basketball, I would sneak into the boys locker room to sniff the shirts of the guys I found attractive. I even almost got caught a few times. But it was always to more muscular and macho guys that drove me crazy. Even the quite guys who were in good shape made me want to get absorbed in them. I could not help but fantasise what I would do them, or better yet, what they would do to me. It was certainly their awesome form that could make the foulest mood get better.
As I got older ( I'm 29 now ), I was only dating guys who fit that mold. If their was a guy who was not fit enough, I would turn them down. Now if I meet a normal size guy, I secretly manipulate him to work out for me. Can't explain it, but its something simply euphoric about rubbing your hands ( or tongue ) or kissing a nice veiny neck, biceps, legs back, arm pit, pecs, and or course veiny dick. Its even better after they work out and are covered in sweat, panting trying to catch their breath and trying to relax.
Although not every gay or bi person has these preferences, these desires have been around since humans beings have been human beings. Greek, Rome, Egypt, China, the Arab world, ect. Explore what you like and embrace it, but only in a comfortable way that suits you