phil if anyone's having a hard time understanding you, maybe its because in one paragraph you demand sensitivity towards your situation, insisting that you're a victim, then the next paragraph you tell us to lighten up because children enjoy these experiences and the only thing wrong with it is how society perceives it, illusional damage that isn't really caused because the child is a willing participant. as usual you're contradicting yourself
First of all... let me apologize to you and teacher for my abusive language...
I ask that you understand that this is an issue I have had to live with all my life... and to be told I lack empathy for my own situation kind of took me by surprise.
as to your rank misrepresentation above...... rather than make up stuff...
Why don't you use the QUOTE feature to demonstrate exactly where I say to "lighten up" because kids "enjoy" it? Because I never said that.
I said its not the worst thing that can happen, unlike what a lot of puritanical hysterics think. Losing a limb is worse... being blinded is worse.... being physically abused is worse....
...hell, being
ignored by your parents is far worse than having sex when you are too young to be having sex.
In fact... pedophiles specifically prey on kids whose parents are too busy or self absorbed to pay them enough attention.
And kids keep going back to their molesters because, honestly, being made to suck dick is LESS painful than being totally ignored.
That is not saying to "lighten up cause its okay"... its saying to stop being hysterical over it because its the hysteria of SHAME that causes children to suffer over it.
Its the hysteria of Shame that makes sex taboo... and children are drawn to the forbidden.
Its the hysteria of Shame that makes children hide what is being done to them.
Our own inability, as a culture, to deal with the fact of childhood sexual curiosity is what makes this painful for children.
As to sensitivity... no, I don't demand anything other than that you be consistent and truthful.
Don't ask a question if you won't reasonably listen to and consider an honest repsonse...
If all you want to hear is affirmations of your own prejudices, then just post your manifestos and don't bother seeking feedback.
What you and teacher need to learn from this site is that childhood sexual experiences, ranging from silly showing off all the way to full blown molestation and everything in between is astonishingly common.
That childhood curiosity about sex is NORMAL... and that good parenting and good education
satisfies that curiosity with truthful
information, rather than leaving children in the dark, on their own, ...to find out the hard way.
When people try to tell folks like you what they went thru and what it did to them... you and teacher have the temerity to be appalled at that truth.
Sorry reality doesn't fit in with your delusions...
But I consider myself and my honesty about this experience a good example for those who have been molested over time by someone they knew.
That you CAN learn to understand and accept that that formative experience HAS a real and lasting effect on your sexuality... and that you don't have to feel ashamed of it. You don't have to allow it to ruin your adult life... and you don't have to take the effect it does have all that seriously... its conditioning, that's all, and not a reflection on you as a person.
I have embraced my early experience.
It was something I was way too young to be involved in... too naive to understand at the time... but I accept my own immature decision to go thru with it. I didn't have to go back for more. And the reasons why I did go back I can understand and accept as seeming valid to an 11 year old boy.
I accept it as I do ANY stupid mistake I made as a child that left a lasting mark.
Because, really... its has no more significance than the scar I still bear from the neighbor's dog. ( I an still a little nervous around strange dogs)
I like gay porn.... I have had sex with men a handful of times, and I occasionally fantasize about gay sex.
All of that is the lingering effect of being molested.
So what?
I wasn't maimed, killed or disfigured.
To me... the tiny percentage of pedophiles who viscously attack children they don't know, physically harming them and sometimes killing them...
That is the real horror.... that is what is appalling to me.
What happened to me is not even in the same ballpark.
I get to live with my experience..
I can do that.