I have been thinking about it alot. Why I have a penis complex. Well I was a late bloomer, and in 6-8th grade all the guys were much bigger then me. After 9th grade I got much bigger then them but damage was done. I felt weak and pathetic all the time then. Also I was abused a lot as a kid, emotionally, physically, and sexually. Not something I usually talk about. Every woman I have been with has told me Im large. My stats would say Im in the top 2-3 pct for length or more, 25pct in girth, So I guess that makes me hung? I know this intellecually. When I see myself I think Im small, But when I see myself on camera, I look huge to me, bigger then a lot of porn I see. Making movies turns me on for this reason, I feel bigger and better. AM I MAKING ANY SENSE? If Im with a woman and I know shes been with man bigger then me, I feel weak. But at same time I really want her to be honest. I know women say size does not matter, but at same time being told Im biggest turns me on so much. And if shes lying well it hurts bad later when I found out. I know a lot of guys have this problem, maybe a little discussion about would help us all? I get a lot of guys messaging me telling me to show them more of my big fat cock. But it makes me angry, its mostly guys, gays Ive notices will say anything, the are uninhibited. Granted as a straight man I do this alot with women I dont think are the sexiest there is, but will tell them things like it.