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I'm just a curious to hear thoughts on the title subject. You see, I've had discussions with my therapist about being vulnerable. My life experiences have made true vulnerability almost impossible for me, to the point that I couldn't tell him in the moment what genuinely made me uncomfortable because I had a contingency plan and response for every conceivable interaction. There seem to be few degrees of seperation between myself and the mask (behind every mask is another mask).
In thinking about it all this weekend, I've come to realize one of the things I crave is physical intimacy. Not sex, as even that performance I've become quite good with. I'm referring to simple affectionate physical contact such as hugging, cuddling, etc.. I've noticed that many of my friends are fine with touching each other in such a way, but not really me. I'm not sure if this is a function if my age, my sexuality, or their understanding of my experiedoes, or even experiences I've had with some of them. It doesn't really matter, honestly. I recognize the it's the one thing I'm afraid reluctant to talk about or ask for, ended from my best friend.
Thank you if you took the time to read my wall of text. I'd love to hear your thoughts or experiences.
In thinking about it all this weekend, I've come to realize one of the things I crave is physical intimacy. Not sex, as even that performance I've become quite good with. I'm referring to simple affectionate physical contact such as hugging, cuddling, etc.. I've noticed that many of my friends are fine with touching each other in such a way, but not really me. I'm not sure if this is a function if my age, my sexuality, or their understanding of my experiedoes, or even experiences I've had with some of them. It doesn't really matter, honestly. I recognize the it's the one thing I'm afraid reluctant to talk about or ask for, ended from my best friend.
Thank you if you took the time to read my wall of text. I'd love to hear your thoughts or experiences.