Oh god, this is so true... men really do get worse, as they age. I find them grumpy and quick to irritation and that’s massively uninteresting to me. I see why they hanker after much younger women - because they’re, generally speaking, easier. Whilst I love women as we age - I find we get a lot more interesting to spend time with, I can see why there’s an issue. As can every other woman over the age of 35. And yes, young guys in their 20’s are cute and enthusiastic - 29 is the youngest I’ve been able to go, but even that was a challenge.
I know what you’re saying about being clear on what I want and to not try to mix and match, but the fact is, I’ve thought this through and I just feel bad about how little sex I’ve had, in absolute years. It’s actually scares me. I figured that, if I really wanted to be in a relationship, I would be. And part of why I haven’t felt like dating (at all), is because I’ve felt so disconnected from my body, sexually speaking. Joining this site, back in June, taking images of myself, chatting with men and writing erotica, did exactly what I’d hoped it would: it woke me up. I spend a lot of time running a business, meanwhile, time is ticking on. I would settled for an intensely pleasurable sexual relationship. I would love that. I love my single life, and whilst I hope I won’t be single forever, right now, I really just want to be fucked and, well, dealt with in away that makes me feel alive. Because, you know, modern life can really suck the life out of you, if you don’t book this stuff in... holiday, books, sex etc. That’s where I am.
And thank you for taking the time to talk this through with me. The only friend of mine I chat to about this - she’s explores her sexuality in similar ways, lives in Sydney and she’s currently on a long trip around South America.... (Having an amazing time!)
I actually feel better. That last paragraph where I wrote about what I want, feels right to me. Maybe it’s just a case of being super clear on these things...