"A bisexual is a person who reaches down the front of somebody's pants and is satisfied with whatever they find." -- Dana Carvey as The Church Lady, Saturday Night Live.
Ha! I think it's true, but how to you get to that point without developing an expectation of what's down there?
And I think this is the question. I, as a person, could have sex with whoever I end up with, in the nature of the quote. But who am I ultimately going after? I'm looking for guys. I like having sex with guys. I like cock, I like the male body, and I like writhing around with guys...that's just it. That's what I'm looking for.
Now I have to honestly say that I don't know that it's the only thing I'm gonna look for from now on. But, what if I stick with guys? Does that mean I'm gay? Does it even really matter that I'm attracted to girls? Sure, I've had sex with girls and I've really enjoyed it. It's hot, and some how, to me, less awkward. But still...I'm not chasing the "sexy bitches" at bars, I'm trying to convince drunk frat boys that they want to come back to my place for some beers.
So am I gay? Am I bi? I'm certainly not straight. But what if I get married one day? I could see it happening. And not because of an "Oops" you're pregnant, or "My parents want grandkids," or "I'm up for a promotion," or even, "You're a lesbian and I'm gay let's just have one of those marrages of convienence," I'm really thinking that it's a possibility. I really think its something I want some day. So...what if it happens? What would that mean?
Would I then be straight? If I never had sex with a guy after that would I be straight? Or would I just be a closeted gay? I'm not feminine (unless I'm drunk and around gays...lol) and am a pretty toned down guy (unless drunk with friends). So would people really care? If I was married to a girl would they even raise the question?
I'm rambling a bit...well a lot...but these are always questions I come back to. I don't like the labeling thing, but I also don't like the system here of giving percentages to one side or the other. I don't know what to day. And honestly I won't know what I put when I signed up for this group until I post this. I never check it and I didn't think about it too long before I picked something.
Any way...my two cents...and maybe there will be more to come. I needed a distraction.