I think I definitely used to, mostly for the sake of having some confidence in my penis. It's been a source of shame and embarrassment, but through the years I've tried to tell myself to reject the credo that small penis = inferior. That only holds true under misogynistic logic of course since large penis = virile and small penis = less manly = more womanly = inferior, and I would argue 99% of folks have internalized that.
That being said, I'm comfortable with my size for my personal sake. I never have to worry about concealing boners, and things often miss the sore spot if it comes flying near my crotch area. I'd imagine large guys have a wider area that would feel pain if something were to impact the region.
So I guess my quest is to find a guy who I can almost live vicariously through. I fantasize about being with a guy with a large penis, and I fantasize about manipulating it and doing things to it. If I can't have one of my own, I can dream of others', right?
Sorry for the essay. This is the first time I've actually been completely candid about this in a public forum.