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Aaaarg!!!
I am a mess.
I started smoking when I was 12, 1985. I quit in 1996. Then I started again in 2005, and I quit again yesterday.
I know I am a humongous idiot for starting again in '05 cause this is ridiculous. I remember how it goes. This week will be hell, next not so bad, 3rd hell, then the next two weeks I'll be insane.
I know all the things they tell you to do but really, the only way to get rid of a nic fit is to HAVE A FUCKING CIGARETTE!!!!
I am trying not to bite anyone's head off. I have a 7yr old daughter now and I really don't want to traumatize her by being a huge bitch. A part of me says "You are not ready to quit, if you were, it would be easier". I told my daughter I was quitting, I can't go back on that. The last thing I want is for her to think it is ok or even good to smoke.
I think I am done ranting. Dammit.
I am a mess.
I started smoking when I was 12, 1985. I quit in 1996. Then I started again in 2005, and I quit again yesterday.
I know I am a humongous idiot for starting again in '05 cause this is ridiculous. I remember how it goes. This week will be hell, next not so bad, 3rd hell, then the next two weeks I'll be insane.
I know all the things they tell you to do but really, the only way to get rid of a nic fit is to HAVE A FUCKING CIGARETTE!!!!
I am trying not to bite anyone's head off. I have a 7yr old daughter now and I really don't want to traumatize her by being a huge bitch. A part of me says "You are not ready to quit, if you were, it would be easier". I told my daughter I was quitting, I can't go back on that. The last thing I want is for her to think it is ok or even good to smoke.
I think I am done ranting. Dammit.