Hey everyone, Im 24, been straight my whole life, and the thought of kissing/cocksucking with gay men just really turns me off, no disrespect. However, I have in the past 2 months realized that I absolutely LOVE anal stimulation & started watching a lot of femdom strapon videos. Im always dominant, especially in the bedroom, but I have to say the submission in receiving anal is just incredible. I bought a dildo + butt plugs & have been experimenting ever since. I much prefer the dildo over the butt plugs once the dildo is in, its just an incredible feeling to have it hit my prostate and then my insides pulled out on the outstroke. Im talking to a couple online who want to meet and the only thing is, she likes to watch him top another guy & then play along. We have exchange a lot of pics & they are definitely not giving any pressure they said we can play it by ear about me bottoming for him. She even does strapon play & then Im going to fuck her after I receive. Dont get me wrong, I want to receive it to see what it feels like, but Im anxious about receiving it from a guy. Its really the whole connotation that Im gay if I try it or that its a bad thing if I went through with it I always feel guilty after watch the femdom strapon videos anyway. My questions are: 1.) Do you think I should try it? 2.) How can I get my conscious mind to accept that receiving anal does not make me gay & its not a bad thing? 3.) Can you tell me what receiving anal sex feels like for a man? Does it feel better to have a real cock in there versus a dildo? Be descriptive as much as you want Im looking to make sure its definitely worth all the nervousness/barrier breaking. Thanks a lot everyone!