This isn't how I wanted to spend my evening. And before I say anything else, I'm not looking for snarky, bitchy comments about how stupid I was. Some may recall a post I made a short while ago about a guy who I have been fooling around with who was trying to pressure me into inserting a rod into my penis. I've met with this guy twice. The first time, he gave me a blow job and that was it. I didn't suck him or anything. It was pretty one way. I touched his dick but that was it. So we met a second time. This time, we did more. I sucked him and he fucked me. He actually asked me if he could fuck me bareback. Thankfully I had enough good judgement to say "No." I watched him put on the condom before he got inside me. He ended up cumming inside me. I saw him take it out and it didn't appear broken in any way. It was during this encounter and shortly after that that he kept wanting to stick a rod in my dick. But that's another story. So, last night I'm on gay.com in the bareback chat room. I've never barebacked before. I had never been fucked before this guy. He was must first bottoming experience. But you know, the fantasy of barebacking is hot. It was in this chatroom that I saw my "friend." And that got me thinking. So I checked his profile and he doesn't list his HIV status. So a little while ago I log on and I see him on there. So I ask him "Are you positive?" And he says "Why do you ask?" And I tell him why. And then a long pause. I pretty much know then what his answer his. Then he says "Well....yes" Wonderful. He goes on to say that he's on his medication and he is "undetectable." I'm not an expert on this issue. From what I understand, is that means the is a less risk that he could infect others but the risk is still there. And I have no idea if he is telling the truth about that or not. He certainly wasn't open and honest with me before. The stupidity on my part was not asking him. So I'll have to live with that. I met this guy on craigslist. He posts ads on there frequently for hookups. So I asked him if he tells other people he is positive. He said he does. I asked him why he didn't tell me. He said it was because he liked me. Don't I feel special? He didn't think I would meet with him if he told me. Which is true. He said he was going to tell me eventually. Hmm... after I'm infected? That's a good time to tell someone. So here's where I am now. I had sex with someone who is HIV+ who says they're on their meds and we used a condom. I asked him if he has any other STDs and he told me no. I'm going to guess he's telling the truth about that. If he admitted to the HIV he probably would have admitted to others. So I'm thinking the risk I may be infected is low but there is a possibility, yes? And I need to get tested. I'm not the type of person that goes around fucking anybody I see. I'm 28 and I can count the number of people I've been sexual with on one hand. And the number of people I've done anal with on one finger. This has just been a mistake in judgement on my part thinking that if someone is HIV+ they'll likely tell you before hand. Stupid, i know. The whole reason why I turned to craiglist in the first place is because I've never really been in a meaningful relationship with anyone. Even if it's just a hook up, it feels nice to be close to someone every now and then. Anyway, thanks for listening. Comments welcome.