I'm only 20, and I'm a virgin. I take pride in that, I'm not like any of my gay friends who go out and lose it to any ol' random guy. I want to lose the big V to someone I absolutely love. That however is another story. Hell, it's not even a story.
I'm currently in a "relationship." Notice the quotations, well this relationship, is strictly meet, greet, sleep, go home. Problem is, he is, "sort of" in a relationship, while I'm completely home free, and able to carry on what I'm doing without any strings. Although, on our first meet, greet, and sleep. He failed to even mention this so called boyfriend. It wasn't until the end of it, that he even said anything remotely close to bf relations.
It didn't hit me until I was going home, that he cheated with me. Keep in mind, his boyfriend is, wait for it..40, he's 22. I talked to a couple of my close friends, my sister and even my mother, they all agreed that he is a sugar baby and that's his sugar daddy. Nonetheless, still a relationship in my eyes. I feel horrible, but the worst part is that I still want to carry on with this whole thing.
I know I'm a horrible person, if I was his boyfriend, I'd hate me too, I'd probably kick my ass. But, I think of it like this, his boyfriend obviously isn't doing what he's suppose to be doing, if he has to find me. That's a horrible way to look at it, I know...but it's the truth. He said, I was the best head he'd received, better than his boyfriend(probably a lie,) being that he is my first and ONLY encounter with a penis, other than my toys. Which I don't even count as a penis. Plus, he has a beautiful penis........yes, it is.
So confused, I want to continue, I don't want to continue. I'm going to get hurt, I know I am. I'm a horrible person, for feeling the way I do. I'm just so confused.
Does anyone have any similar stories to mine? Any advice? What to do, what to do. :frown1:
I'm currently in a "relationship." Notice the quotations, well this relationship, is strictly meet, greet, sleep, go home. Problem is, he is, "sort of" in a relationship, while I'm completely home free, and able to carry on what I'm doing without any strings. Although, on our first meet, greet, and sleep. He failed to even mention this so called boyfriend. It wasn't until the end of it, that he even said anything remotely close to bf relations.
It didn't hit me until I was going home, that he cheated with me. Keep in mind, his boyfriend is, wait for it..40, he's 22. I talked to a couple of my close friends, my sister and even my mother, they all agreed that he is a sugar baby and that's his sugar daddy. Nonetheless, still a relationship in my eyes. I feel horrible, but the worst part is that I still want to carry on with this whole thing.
I know I'm a horrible person, if I was his boyfriend, I'd hate me too, I'd probably kick my ass. But, I think of it like this, his boyfriend obviously isn't doing what he's suppose to be doing, if he has to find me. That's a horrible way to look at it, I know...but it's the truth. He said, I was the best head he'd received, better than his boyfriend(probably a lie,) being that he is my first and ONLY encounter with a penis, other than my toys. Which I don't even count as a penis. Plus, he has a beautiful penis........yes, it is.
So confused, I want to continue, I don't want to continue. I'm going to get hurt, I know I am. I'm a horrible person, for feeling the way I do. I'm just so confused.
Does anyone have any similar stories to mine? Any advice? What to do, what to do. :frown1:
I've stopped talking to him all together, and "lost his number" aka, now he's under "DO NOT REPLY."
