I think i`m using the word right, i could be wrong, i just woke out of a vivid dream, it`s like i crossed over into a concious that few seldomly get to share.
Let me explain, i have been going through so much lately that my soul feels as though it has been torn from the trials and tribulations of my life. It has been the combination of the past mixed in with the present.
It`s very clear now, the closer i`ve become to being absolutly free the harder my life has become.
I`ve with great courage shared my pain and endevours thinking that i`ve faced my fears but in doing so have attracted others that are in the same pain(battle)and in doing so have awoken their denial, and or refusal to face the demons that hinder them from being free(the chains that bind them).
It would seem logical if they are not ready to face these hauntings to attack the one who is, their fear is so great that they will go to any lengths to protect their fantasy which they have built to protect themselves from the reality that haunts them in their souls.
I`ve heard this before, or maybe it was another life, it just didn`t make as much sense then as it does now, it`s the self made prisons in our own minds that we create for ourselves, if i`m not the problem then there is no solution.
So this is it in a nut shell, by me not facing my fears on my own and trusting in others instead of my higher power i have failed in my faith by thinking that man could help me.
Let me explain further from a simple observation:
If you open a cacoon too soon the butterfly will attempt to fly yet it will die because it failed to struggle on its own to be free from it`s cacoon, by not struggling on it`s own failed to gain the strenghts it needs to survive.
Ok, now that i`ve shared this i worry that one, i`m close to death because many people never figure this out untill their life is over or they are near death or two, i have discovered the secrets inside pandoras box, that what lies in pandoras box is not death and destruction but what comes from within a man that starts wars and tears others apart, in other words what lies in the box is the reflection of the very soul one posseses.
The secrets that elude man lie within oneself, within the very soul he carries, yet he persues the globe in shearch of answers from his own denial that he`ll never find.
I believe now that wars, holocousts, the death and destruction of nations and people have been the victoms of of such endevours, mans persuit on the outside instead of within and no matter how many victories one achieves theres still that empty void, so even in ones great achievements of dominace of others they have still failed to discover what they have longed for and what eludes them from their own pride and ego which stems from their great achievements, to dominate themselves(the feelings and emotions that rule ones actions).
Now the question that comes to mind is can i forgive myself to my own ignorance and self-righteousness.
lafever
Let me explain, i have been going through so much lately that my soul feels as though it has been torn from the trials and tribulations of my life. It has been the combination of the past mixed in with the present.
It`s very clear now, the closer i`ve become to being absolutly free the harder my life has become.
I`ve with great courage shared my pain and endevours thinking that i`ve faced my fears but in doing so have attracted others that are in the same pain(battle)and in doing so have awoken their denial, and or refusal to face the demons that hinder them from being free(the chains that bind them).
It would seem logical if they are not ready to face these hauntings to attack the one who is, their fear is so great that they will go to any lengths to protect their fantasy which they have built to protect themselves from the reality that haunts them in their souls.
I`ve heard this before, or maybe it was another life, it just didn`t make as much sense then as it does now, it`s the self made prisons in our own minds that we create for ourselves, if i`m not the problem then there is no solution.
So this is it in a nut shell, by me not facing my fears on my own and trusting in others instead of my higher power i have failed in my faith by thinking that man could help me.
Let me explain further from a simple observation:
If you open a cacoon too soon the butterfly will attempt to fly yet it will die because it failed to struggle on its own to be free from it`s cacoon, by not struggling on it`s own failed to gain the strenghts it needs to survive.
Ok, now that i`ve shared this i worry that one, i`m close to death because many people never figure this out untill their life is over or they are near death or two, i have discovered the secrets inside pandoras box, that what lies in pandoras box is not death and destruction but what comes from within a man that starts wars and tears others apart, in other words what lies in the box is the reflection of the very soul one posseses.
The secrets that elude man lie within oneself, within the very soul he carries, yet he persues the globe in shearch of answers from his own denial that he`ll never find.
I believe now that wars, holocousts, the death and destruction of nations and people have been the victoms of of such endevours, mans persuit on the outside instead of within and no matter how many victories one achieves theres still that empty void, so even in ones great achievements of dominace of others they have still failed to discover what they have longed for and what eludes them from their own pride and ego which stems from their great achievements, to dominate themselves(the feelings and emotions that rule ones actions).
Now the question that comes to mind is can i forgive myself to my own ignorance and self-righteousness.
lafever
