i've decided that its time to go away for a while. it feels like "baggage" coming here anymore. as some of you know, this past year has been pretty tough for me. i spent a lot of time here over the last year, i got close to some people, and for that, i'm thankful. LPSG has been an escape for me. a place where i can just be my imperfect self and vent.
as i type this, i feel nervous. anxious. emotional. LPSG has been like a security blanket. hard to let go. i never thought i'd cry over a forum. :redface:
i can't explain it, but i know in my heart that i need to leave this place and find better things to do with my life. not that its lame coming here, its just i haven't been out to do anything in over 3 years. i have lived here in louisiana for 2 years altogether so far and i still don't know anyone. how is that even possible? i've been afraid of the world. people. everything. i've developed so many phobias and its just holding me back from living a "normal" life. i need to just get out there and LIVE. all my life, i've felt like i've just been existing and not really living life. i've watched life pass me by. i can't do that anymore.
so i leave here tonight, knowing the next time i log in, i'll be a different person. i will be the real Denae. the new and improved Denae. whoever she is.
...and thanks to anyone who's cared to listen to my rantings. its meant more to me than you probably even know.
i love you all. :hug:
as i type this, i feel nervous. anxious. emotional. LPSG has been like a security blanket. hard to let go. i never thought i'd cry over a forum. :redface:
i can't explain it, but i know in my heart that i need to leave this place and find better things to do with my life. not that its lame coming here, its just i haven't been out to do anything in over 3 years. i have lived here in louisiana for 2 years altogether so far and i still don't know anyone. how is that even possible? i've been afraid of the world. people. everything. i've developed so many phobias and its just holding me back from living a "normal" life. i need to just get out there and LIVE. all my life, i've felt like i've just been existing and not really living life. i've watched life pass me by. i can't do that anymore.
so i leave here tonight, knowing the next time i log in, i'll be a different person. i will be the real Denae. the new and improved Denae. whoever she is.
...and thanks to anyone who's cared to listen to my rantings. its meant more to me than you probably even know.
i love you all. :hug: