Ok, so I kind of left right after I posted, was hurried out mainly. The guy said I could just come and watch if I wanted, they just wanted to feel someone there. So I did it. It seriously took me an hour from the time I first got the proposal to when I posted. So I got there, and it was really awkward. Saying hi's and stuff. The guys were good looking. So I felt like a creeper, but the guy who was hosting was actually really nice and said "I know you feel weird, I did to. Just let it sink in." They started making out, rubbing each others crotches and such. Then it got real when they pulled their dicks out and started stroking each other. I had a massive boner. I was sort of in an entranced state I guess you could put it. The guy suggested I take off my pants and let it get some air. Kind of tight in my jeans, so I did. It popped out of the fly which was embarassing, and they just looked at me and stared at my dick with a really shocked expression. It seems that I have a big dick (who knew)? That was the first time I had been nude in front of a person that wasn't a doctor, it was weird. I just let it hang out, watching them give blowjobs and such right next to me. The hot nice one grabbed my cock and started jacking me off. I was just completely stunned. I didn't know what was happening. I didn't want it to stop though. Then the other one started massaging and kissing my neck, which felt really good. I was not in control of my actions anymore. I told them I did not want to fuck and did not want to kiss. They were fine with that. So they started working off my boxers and shorts, and kept complementing me, which felt really good, I feel like I look bad and such, but when I stepped in the door the hot nice one said I was cute. I don't know. Anyways, they started back with each other, 69ing and rimming each other while they jacked my cock (had to get close). The nice one was joking with me this whole time, saying like "Im a top, I rim him just for his own sake" that seemed funny at the time. In one swift move they started blowing me. One was kissing and fondling while the other was blowing me. And you know what? I really didn't feel anything. A blowjob just didnt seem to compare to jacking off, even while stimulated. They kept going like that, and I felt bad for just taking, so I started jacking one of the guys cock. It felt weird, but just like it was my own in a way. I guess he was sensitive because he moaned a lot. So they stopped with me and started fucking. It was really cool to watch it. The guy who was getting fucked was sucking my cock (different than the first bj), and I still did not feel good. Licking the tip felt alright, but I just didnt feel it. The hot guy came but surprising I hadn't. The other one hadn't come either. So they got back into blowing me and me jacking them position. Then suddenly I felt a tongue on my hole. I was being rimmed! And again, it did not feel like anything. It sort of felt more like a bidet. He was licking and poking in a little, and I kinda didnt want to ask him to stop because on the ride over he said how excited he was to eat my ass out. So it finally got into a position where I was jacking the other one, the hot guy was sucking me and the other one was kissing my neck and stuff. I'm in college, and I want to try everything, so I thought "why not try sucking a cock? Im probably never going to get another chance." So I started off, it didnt taste like anything, maybe a little salt. I tried to copy what the hot guy had been doing. It was just kind of boring, so I stopped and just pinched his nipples while he jacked. I finally came into the hot guys mouth, and the other guy came on the hot guy. After cleaning up and on the ride back home, I started thinking. That wasn't enjoyable at all. I could have done the same thing with my hand. They were pros and definitely had done this before, so I doubt it was their technique. It wasnt nerves cause I lost those after I started jacking off the other guy. It just wasn't fun.
I got home and just thought it over. Today it really feels like a dream, like it didnt happen, but it did. I thought it over long and hard, and couldnt figure out why I didnt enjoy it, event though I was fully focused during the fun. I think I realised that I'm not attracted to men. I was so eager to have a sexual experience, I found men to be easier to get than girls.
I know a lot of you are going to say "Well one experience doesnt prove anything." But I have to say it really did. I dont regret doing it, cause now I know that Im just not attracted to men like that. I know a lot of you are also going to say something to the extent of "you sucked a cock, you must be a little gay." And a lot are going to counter with "no labels, just be". I'm not labeling myself. I'm just stating what I feel afterwards. Ive had time to let it sink it. I knew what I was getting into. I feel like a girl would be more fun for me, more enjoyable. I won't know till Ive tried it.
Also, the guy I blew asked me if I was sure I had never sucked cock before. He said that I gave a great blowjob for my first time. Weird....