In a word, yes. The association with sex, sexual power, sexual dominance, and sexual desireability have been associated with larger genitals for millenia. It is deep in our biological and cultural memory. It is at a visceral level. We have been programmed at very deep levels to be turned on and attracted by large genitalia, as overt displays of power and desireability to breed. It is not something that most people are overwhelmed with on a constant level, and their personal preferences of course vary quite a bit, but your brains has been programmed to associate a big dick with power, alpha male status, etc. etc. 99% of the time, a straight guy will have certain fantasies and desires, and sexuality or ability to feel sexual towards someone run a spectrum. The large majority of guys that are mainly straight but not absolutely straight I have ever known feel exactly as you do. Your sexuality, as I have said over and over mainly has to do with your EMOTIONAL desires. Who you have sex with, or how, or whatever, is based on a desire of the moment--it is a complex soup of ever changigng factors. It goes in phases. The main thing you have to decide is if you ever want to act on those desires. Do some real soul searching about it--don't get into a situation that you aren't ready for. Most of all don't beat yourself up or anybody else up mentally or emotionally, either. This can lead to internalized or externalized homophobia because of the internal panic over occasional thoughts or desires. Most of the time, it is left as an occasional masturbatory fantasy, or some porn that relates to it, and that is that. give yourself a break, and try not to sweat it much--you aren't alone, and it is very rare for someone NEVER to have such fantasies or thoughts or desires. Chalk it up to being human and being part of the human race with all the crap that goes with it. Learn to laugh about it, mostly, but don't act without thinking it through. :smile: