It seems I always have to have some sort of crisis going on, it's like a requirement or something. Anyway as you may remember, I lost my virginity in a one night stand with a girl, and it was pretty fail. Since then I've found that I have lost all interest I had in women. This is kind of irritating me especially as I've had several women hitting on me since then, one of whom said she loved me, and I recognise she's very attractive, but I have no interest in her. It's more than just a couple of hot girls who hit on me and I had no reaction, I seem to have just lost my bisexuality - I'm not getting turned on by women. Realising that I'm at the moment only turned on by men, and quite probably gay is scaring me a lot more than I thought it would. Discrimination I can deal with, but I just don't identify with the gay scene. I don't do the whole effeminate thing, I don't like gay clubs (the ones around here are a bit seedy), and generally I just don't come across as being gay. This is sort of like enjoying going to the cinema but hating films. : / And I feel I have to somehow get into 'the scene' to explore this aspect of myself as it sounds strange but I don't have any gay friends. Well I have one gay friend who has had a crush on me for the last 3 years, but I'm not attracted to him at all. I'm trying to just go with the flow at the moment, but the flow seems to be an endless parade of hot girls, who I want nothing but friendship from, hitting on me. I hate life.