I seriously need some advice, I feel like I'm just hurting myself here. So basically, theres this guy in the campus whose openly gay, and I myself still keep my bisexual identity somewhat of a secret. One night I was drunk and he tried to help me to my room, I told him I wanted him and I ended up getting fucked by him. I thought it was just a one time thing, and somehow I just wanted more from him. Since then, we've had sex together like four times? The thing is though, he refuses to suck me, or stroke me. I'm just a bottom for him to fuck, and even though I ask, he refuses. Today we fucked again, and he was seriously hurting me. I was bleeding after he was done, and he didn't really give a damn. It dawned on me that he just needs an ass to fuck, and I don't really matter at all. I for one, don't enjoy the sex because he's always rough and I'm always just hoping he'll cum soon so the pain doesn't last as long. I know this sounds childish, but what I enjoy the most, well, what I only enjoy is when we make out, when he touches me. Everytime we fuck, I tell myself, no it cannot happen again, he is just using me, but then again I find myself going back to him. I really don't know what to do, I feel like shit everytime he just cums, pulls out and just proceed to clean up and leave, and I end up jacking myself off. Any advice is greatly appreciated.