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Salutations!
The reason why I'm writing this is because I celebrated my 22nd birthday alone yesterday. It has been a tradition of mine throughout my childhood up to now where I celebrated my birthday by myself. Although I have grown to become self-sufficient and independent, there are moments, especially when I celebrate my birthday, where I wish I have someone with whom I can celebrate fond memories with. My 22nd birthday has been different this time because while I celebrated my birthday alone, I see a company of women who are celebrating their girlfriend's birthday. Seeing them gleefully laugh and smile struck a cord in me in many ways as after I left the restaurant, I cried while walking at a park. I know it's odd writing in this because I have no one with whom I can articulate my feelings with this.
I'm not in a rush and I'm happy being single. Yet, I've never been in a relationship---romantic and platonic. I have people (who are in relationships) that tell to me advice that goes along the lines of "There's someone out there for you." Yet, I feel as though this advice is gaslighting because there's no guarantee that everyone would meet the love of their life and it's a extreme privilege to find love. Even as a Black gay guy myself, I have come to terms that I may not find love as I've never as though I belong in both community (Black and LGBT+ communities).
Thank you for reading this!
The reason why I'm writing this is because I celebrated my 22nd birthday alone yesterday. It has been a tradition of mine throughout my childhood up to now where I celebrated my birthday by myself. Although I have grown to become self-sufficient and independent, there are moments, especially when I celebrate my birthday, where I wish I have someone with whom I can celebrate fond memories with. My 22nd birthday has been different this time because while I celebrated my birthday alone, I see a company of women who are celebrating their girlfriend's birthday. Seeing them gleefully laugh and smile struck a cord in me in many ways as after I left the restaurant, I cried while walking at a park. I know it's odd writing in this because I have no one with whom I can articulate my feelings with this.
I'm not in a rush and I'm happy being single. Yet, I've never been in a relationship---romantic and platonic. I have people (who are in relationships) that tell to me advice that goes along the lines of "There's someone out there for you." Yet, I feel as though this advice is gaslighting because there's no guarantee that everyone would meet the love of their life and it's a extreme privilege to find love. Even as a Black gay guy myself, I have come to terms that I may not find love as I've never as though I belong in both community (Black and LGBT+ communities).
Thank you for reading this!