Hey, mancandy, I am the same way i never was happy with my size even in highschool i wanted to be bigger, (i wasnt the smallest, probably among the top 20 in size but that was highschool we really didnt know what we were looking at) now that i know how to use it i want it to be like you about 1-1.5 bigger and maybe a little thicker.......
So in answer to your ? NO, NO, NO you are not stupid to think like that, but it now makes me wonder why i started thinking like that- what made me think i needed to be bigger, what makes me want to "measure up" to a standard i dont even recall setting for myself. and now the big ? is do i really ...really... want that, or do i try to spend more time just being comfortable as i am...( dont mean to take over your thread man, but is this the kind of rambling going on in your head too?)