I dated my ex for 5 years. Her two sisters only dated black men, and she herself really liked Asian guys. After dating for a few months, she admits that she can't help but to look at guys buldges all the time and constantly wonders which guys have big dicks. She had never mentioned dick size before. I not necessarily surprised because I know I’m small. I asked her why she thought that and if it mattered. Of course she said no, size didn’t matter to her. It wasn't until later in that she started revealing things little by little. One time we went on vacation and she got very drunk (she hardly ever drank) and told me that she liked big dicks and that mine was too small. She told me that it's a manly trait to have a big dick and big balls that could cum a big load. This is something later on I would find out about her, when she was drunk, she could be brutal. This actually turned me on though, because I've always had a fetish for sph. Over time she would make little comments here and there about my small dick. I actually tried to get her to do a little sph, but she said it was weird and wouldn’t do it. Even so, she would make comments every now and then about my size, but when drunk, she would be way less reserved. She said she didn't like thinking about how small I was because it made her think less of me as a man. At times she would tell me things about a couple of her friends whose husbands had big dicks. She would tell me she would get really jealous and how they had sex all the time. She told me we'd have sex a lot more of I were bigger. She told me that she had to lie to them and say I was 5" long because she was embarrassed that I was only about 3.5” long. She admitted that it actually made her bitter toward me at times. I suggested toys, we went to a local toy store and we decided we would each pick out a toy for her. I picked out an 8.5" x 6" dildo. To my surprise, she picked out a 9.5"x7.5" "lifelike" dildo. The dildo I got her she took easily, she slid in the first 3.5" and paused and said "mmm, I can tell exactly how far you can reach" then she looked at me biting her lips, and shoved the rest of the 8.5" into her, letting out a moan. She came pretty hard with the dildo, leaving her shaking afterward, something I have never done to her, I've only been able to give her cliterol orgasms. A few days later she tried the bigger dildo, it took her a few days not to be too sore from the first dildo. Unfortunately she was in too much pain. I had an idea, I got her some alcohol from our fridge, poured her some shots that she downed quickly, then proceeded to get her in the mood. Once the alcohol kicked in, I got the dildo ready for her, it was tough to get it in at first, and she said it hurt pretty bad. I asked her if she wanted me to stop and she said no, she wanted to see what it was like to be fucked by a huge dick. At first we had to work it nice and slow, after several minutes, she was ramming it in and out of her pussy. Moaning in extasy. I asked her how it felt and all she could mumble out was better. I asked her better than what, she wasn't able to reply because she was Moaning so much. I asked her "better than your other dildo?" She mumbled out "better than your small penis" as she came, her body violently rocked like she was having a seizure. She laid there for a while taking deep breaths as I watched her stomach just rise and fall with each breath. I asked her how it was and she just said "amazing" then she said "I really wish you had a big dick to match your big muscles." She actually only used that dildo 1 other time, she was also drunk that time, she tried when she was sober and said it hurt too much.
Another time she was bragging about how good she used to be at giving head and how she could make any guy cum in less than a min. (She would NEVER give me head) I said "I thought you didn't like giving head?" She said "I don't, but there's a lot of things I'd do for you if you were bigger."
One of her sisters and her cousin and her were visiting family out of state, she was gone for 2 weeks and they decided to go to a sex shop. She was telling them that she wanted to spice up our sex life, they suggested buying a sexy lil outfit for the bedroom. She said she wanted to buy me a strap-on. They asked why and she said she wanted to get used to bigger dicks. They asked her how big I was and she said 5". I asked why she said 5 and she said because she didn't want them to make fun of her and they'd probably think less of me and she was embarrassed I was so small. She didn’t ever actually buy me one.
So many times while pounding her with all I had, she'd ask me to hurry up and finish. She asked me several different times if it felt good for me, and I said yes and she'd reply with something like "well I'm glad it feels good for you, because it doesn't for me."
She's told me several times that both her sisters husbands have huge dicks, and that her sisters can't get enough of them.
One time her sister sent her a pic of her husbands cum running down her leg, it didn't show her pussy, but I guess that globs of it were running Out of her. She showed me the picture, without me knowing what it was. "What is that?" I asked. "What does it look like?" She said. "I'm not sure." "Does it look like a leg?" She asked. Looking closer I realized what it was, my wife didn't watch porn at all, so I thought it was weird that she was showing me this. "Why do you have a picture of a leg with cum all over it everywhere?" "Because I was talking to my sister about how we’ve never used a condom and I haven’t ever gotten pregnant, I said you had a really small load. She said her husband came a lot and she sent me this. It’s so much isn't it! That's like 10 or more loads for you. No wonder both my sisters have got pregnant and I’ haven’t."
One time after sex, she laid there and look really upset, I asked her what was wrong and she seriously through a fit and said "it's not fair that I'm never going to get to experience a big cock and know what it's like to have really great sex!"
There are so many times where I'm having sex with her and she ask me to use the dildo instead.
Very often when I wanted sex, she would say "you can jerk off if you want to."
She told me that there were so many times she wanted to have sex, but seeing my penis turned her off and she didn't want to anymore.
She would NEVER touch my penis, she said it was too small to touch, she didn't like that it fit in her hand and when it wasn't hard, she felt like it was a child's penis. My wife now has also said that my penis is literally the size of a 10 year olds, just thicker.
She was telling me that she was at school with a group of guys and they were talking about how they hate when it's hot how their penis and balls stick to their legs. She asked why it would stick to their leg and they said when it's hanging down and hot, it gets sweaty, and causes it to stick. Then they said "ask your boyfriend, I'm sure it happens to him" then she said "oh trust me, he doesn't have the problem of his penis or balls hanging down low enough to stick to his leg"
When I was staying at her parents house for a week, her mom got mad at her telling her that she didn't like having to clean up under the front of the toilet seat and down the front of the toilet because the urine would get in the grout and stain it. She told her mom that we had the same problem because my penis was too short to hang down into the toilet, so the pee would sometimes get under the toilet seat.
One day while laying in bed naked, she starts massaging my balls. Something she never does. Then I notices she gently squeezing them. I look over at her and she is basically examining my balls. Then she says, wow, your balls really are tiny!”
She has told me before that she has had dreams about me having a huge dick.
She told me she had dreams about this huge body builder that worked out at the gym we went to and how good the sex was and how big his dick was and how hard he pounded her and how they had sex in positions I was too short to do. Then a week later I see her at the gym flirting with him
I asked her one time if I could have an skinny body with a huge dick, or my be in shape (I was in great shape at the time) and my current dick, what would you choose, she said skinny body with big dick.
Anyways, she in general was just a rude, unattenitive person who only cared about herself. She never would let me go down on her, she wouldn’t give me head, wouldn’t jerk me off, wouldn’t let me finger her. She didn’t like me touching her breast because it made her feel insecure about them. We hardly kissed, basically there was almost never any foreplay. She wouldn’t do any dirty talking, not even mildly. We had sex 1-2 times a month for the majority of our relationship. My wife now will make remarks, but they aren’t even said in the same tone or with the intent of actually just being a bitch like my ex would be. My ex did end up cheating on me and got pregnant. He was another Asian guy, so maybe he was big, I know some asian guys are, but I don’t think she cheated on me for size, she just cheated cuz that’s how she was and she had a past history of cheating on people in general. Great thing is I’m now married to an adventurous woman who is kind and even tho I’m not big enough for me, she makes sure I get my pleasure too and always wants to have sex in one way or another with me.