I realize what my true issue with my size is.
It's not so much that I am average as it is that I feel girls will expect me to be bigger and be sorely disappointed when they find I'm average (within the 6 inch range, a little over 5 girth).
I am 6'1...Italian...big hands...I hold physical features that in our Society (in the US, at least) stereotypically may lead girls into thinking that I'm "well endowed". Also, up until this complex came about, I was also pretty cocky, not that I would really believe I was better than anyone but I'd just kind of jokingly act it to get a shock and laugh out of people. That has changed since however due to my complex. I've also always been very open with the discussion of sex and my friends believe I'm much more promiscuous than I actually am (as I am a big flirt) so because of this I feel they make assumptions (I mean, they have in the past but I just never really thought twice about it).
It sounds really pathetic to say, but basically it turned to this crisis where I conciously had to reformat certain aspects of my personality in fear that I will give girls the impression that I could be big. I'm overreacting, I know.
This is basically the true, deep reason of my issue though. Average would be much easier to accept if I didn't have the pressure of society telling me that I should be bigger.
It's not so much that I am average as it is that I feel girls will expect me to be bigger and be sorely disappointed when they find I'm average (within the 6 inch range, a little over 5 girth).
I am 6'1...Italian...big hands...I hold physical features that in our Society (in the US, at least) stereotypically may lead girls into thinking that I'm "well endowed". Also, up until this complex came about, I was also pretty cocky, not that I would really believe I was better than anyone but I'd just kind of jokingly act it to get a shock and laugh out of people. That has changed since however due to my complex. I've also always been very open with the discussion of sex and my friends believe I'm much more promiscuous than I actually am (as I am a big flirt) so because of this I feel they make assumptions (I mean, they have in the past but I just never really thought twice about it).
It sounds really pathetic to say, but basically it turned to this crisis where I conciously had to reformat certain aspects of my personality in fear that I will give girls the impression that I could be big. I'm overreacting, I know.
This is basically the true, deep reason of my issue though. Average would be much easier to accept if I didn't have the pressure of society telling me that I should be bigger.