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I'm straight or Bi and have a girlfriend but when I watch porn I like to watch 'blowjob porns' or I really like to watch 'oral creampie' videos. Non of these videos are gay, they all have woman giving the blowjob with cum running out of there mouth. I get so Horny Thats all I want to do it give a blowjob and get cum in my mouth. I've givin blowjobs before when I was younger and love it but once I cum I feel so disgusted with myself. I would always make sure to get him off first. Now I get these crazy urges and keep setting up meetings but end up cuming at home and feel so stupid for taking time to set up a meeting. Any advice ?
 

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I've met so many people like you, bud. I used to work in a gay bathhouse and one guy would come in, literally gagging for cock, then as soon as he shot his load he would get really violent and barge his way out, shouting how much of a dirty fag he was. As he passed me on the front desk, he would say in a very aggressive nature, "fuckin' bar me from coming in here! OK?!". Low and behold, he'd be there again the next week. Eventually we got used to him coming and had all the doors open for him to help his swift, guilt ridden exit.

Sounds like you have some inner guilt issues going on. Something, or somebody has convinced you that what you are doing is wrong, when it's perfectly natural! Just stop putting a label on it and just enjoy what you're doing. There's nothing to feel guilty about. It's just what gets you off. We all have our little quirks, and it is absolutely nothing to be ashamed about.

As far as the meets go - work out what it is that you require from the meet. Figure out what your ground rules are, and make them absolutely plain when you're arranging. Then you will stay within your comfort zone and ultimately enjoy the experience. However, if you do continue to plan meets and never follow through, that's cool too. It's whatever you feel comfortable doing. Don't push yourself into anything for anyone. Even your own testosterone fuelled brain! Lol
 

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IA with Bigred.

both of you guys just really enjoy having a dick in your mouths and who can blame you? you just gotta approach this as naturally as possible. it's an urge, it's nothing bad, no one is getting hurt.

and i think it's also rather normal for men to lose interest in sex once they've cum. :)
 
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Thanks everybody for the support. It just seems that when I was younger I wouldn't think twice. I would run right out that door to meet who ever just to taste his dick. Now that I'm older I still want to do that but I'm so hesitant because of the feelings I know I'm going to encounter after. Its funny how when I was younger I just wanted to give blowjobs but now I have more intense thoughts of a threesome and me being the bottom or me being forced to do stuff. When it all comes down to it I can't get my ass off the couch to go do it. Thanks for listening to be babble, needed to get this off my chest. Its been years
 

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Whilst I have never had the pleasure of giving a bj, I've always wanted to. Just not going to be aggressive about that happening. If it comes to pass, it will be because the other party broached the subject first.

But I'll make a suggestion that may help you learn to cope with the afterwards feeling. I've been into swallowing my own cum for awhile, actually since I was 20 or 21 and first learned I could get into that position (yoga Plow) and get within a few inches of my mouth. When first doing this I would always spit it out afterwards with a puking feeling. But I overcame that feeling and it's not a problem to swallow anymore. And since the swallowing happens after I ejaculate, you learn to cope with that feeling.

Try it, you'll like it. :smile:
 
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Whilst I have never had the pleasure of giving a bj, I've always wanted to. Just not going to be aggressive about that happening. If it comes to pass, it will be because the other party broached the subject first.

But I'll make a suggestion that may help you learn to cope with the afterwards feeling. I've been into swallowing my own cum for awhile, actually since I was 20 or 21 and first learned I could get into that position (yoga Plow) and get within a few inches of my mouth. When first doing this I would always spit it out afterwards with a puking feeling. But I overcame that feeling and it's not a problem to swallow anymore. And since the swallowing happens after I ejaculate, you learn to cope with that feeling.

Try it, you'll like it. :smile:

I'm actually in extremly good shape and can get half of my dick in my mouth. The same deal happens. I will be sucking myself off and I don't last long at all because I'm so excited to be sucking dick and I'm getting my dick sucked that I cum right away. I always get a couple shots in but get that instant regret feeling and spit it back out.
 

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Hey man,

I would never tell you to end your relationship with your gf, EVER. But it does sound as if you have some things that you need to work out for you. For now, if you're going to engage in these, activities, continue to make the guy a priority as far as getting off. The more you dive into the activities that you're doing, the more comfortable you will feel. I believe that yeah, it's a gay act, but that's okay. You already accept that you're a bit bisexual, fully come to terms with it. It's not like you need to come out or anything, but you have to be comfortable in your own skin anyway. You might as well enjoy yourself in this life. :)

I hope that things get easier for you man, and if you have any questions, feel free to message me!

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Is it weird that like I want to be this little slut, I think thats what I find so attractive about the blowjob and oral creampie videos, besides the big dicks. I want to be that slut that gets mouth fucked and gangbanged. I have even wore my girls panties so I feel cute. The more I actaully type it and say it aloud the crazier it sounds (I'm not in a horny mood) ! Again thanks everyone for the support. First time talking about this with anyone.
 

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Is it weird that like I want to be this little slut, I think thats what I find so attractive about the blowjob and oral creampie videos, besides the big dicks. I want to be that slut that gets mouth fucked and gangbanged. I have even wore my girls panties so I feel cute. The more I actaully type it and say it aloud the crazier it sounds (I'm not in a horny mood) ! Again thanks everyone for the support. First time talking about this with anyone.

I think we as people are guilty of thinking too much about what others will think, so we don't speak the truth, even to ourselves. What you're doing is perfectly healthy. I have a friend who lives as a straight man, but he loves watching interracial porn, and seeing big, black dicks pound tight white pussies. From that, he wanted to be those "sluts". So, when he found out that I was interested in him, he went nuts for me. The guy can take a dick too- down the throat, up the ass- it's like he's allowing himself to have what he's always wanted! And it's healthy for him to do that. Every time I see him, he seems even more so comfortable. SO if you want to be that "slut", go ahead man! And have the time of your life. Make sure you're being safe, that's all that I ask, okay?
 

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I'm actually in extremly good shape and can get half of my dick in my mouth. The same deal happens. I will be sucking myself off and I don't last long at all because I'm so excited to be sucking dick and I'm getting my dick sucked that I cum right away. I always get a couple shots in but get that instant regret feeling and spit it back out.

Any feeling that ends immediately after the point of orgasm needs to be re-examined. Regret is pointless since you will return to it again and again. Minimalization won't help either in the sense that it won't let you figure out what you want to do with your life. For most people, it's not as simple as "wanting to suck the dick".

Is it weird that like I want to be this little slut, I think thats what I find so attractive about the blowjob and oral creampie videos, besides the big dicks. I want to be that slut that gets mouth fucked and gangbanged. I have even wore my girls panties so I feel cute. The more I actaully type it and say it aloud the crazier it sounds (I'm not in a horny mood) ! Again thanks everyone for the support. First time talking about this with anyone.

I think it's sad when people reduce themselves to simply sexual beings and don't try to integrate their sexual selves with their emotional and intellectual selves. If you are learning about the sexual part of yourself, great. Now, integrate that into the greater part of your life.
 

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Having full sex with men or women is fine.
Or both.

Having oral sex either way around, and with men or women, is fine.

Labelling yourself one way or another may or may not be fine. Be cautious with that. Language has limits. Beyond those limits, sometimes things get hazy ...

What's not really fine is feelings of guilt. Or any kind of ongoing dis-satisfaction with yourself.

Little bursts of feeling we could do something better are OK. That spurs us all to try to improve ourselves, as best we can...

But it can become an unhelpful habit.

Sex is a strange mixture. There are bodily functions there. Organs. Hormones. The brain and nervous system.

But it also encapsulates a lot of signs and symbols from the social world around us. So many words. Rituals. Behaviours. Feelings.

Never ever feel guilty about any sensation you have, or any desire, provided it doesn't hurt another person, and provided the other person is also freely willing.

Not for one second.

But what might be worth doing is spending some time forging a life around those feelings. A life that works well for you. Things like how you meet people, where you go, how you make plans, how you prepare, how you balance your time, all need to be put together in the right way for you, to make a happy, smooth, sustainable way of living ...

Be peaceful, reflect, keep going ... all the best to you :smile:
 
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About a year ago I was going to gay clubs alot on the weekends with my girl and a family member of mine that is gay. I always had the best time. One weekend I had done some coke with a friend of mine and went to the gay club with my girl. I ended up telling her that in the past i had blown guys and done anal. She seemed fine with it. I even offered to bring a guy home from the club which she was down for to ( she was high as well). Even though I was high I new that I wouldn't be able to suck a dick in front of her without feeling wierd. Like she is always judging me. I feel like if I told her how I felt now about doing it she would most likely be extremely mad and or jelous. I even try to do new exciting straight things with her and its just always a no go. I don't know. I think I'm falling off subject.
Everything everyone has said has been so eye openeing. I'm glad I found this site.
 

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I've met so many people like you, bud. I used to work in a gay bathhouse and one guy would come in, literally gagging for cock, then as soon as he shot his load he would get really violent and barge his way out, shouting how much of a dirty fag he was. As he passed me on the front desk, he would say in a very aggressive nature, "fuckin' bar me from coming in here! OK?!". Low and behold, he'd be there again the next week. Eventually we got used to him coming and had all the doors open for him to help his swift, guilt ridden exit.

Sounds like you have some inner guilt issues going on. Something, or somebody has convinced you that what you are doing is wrong, when it's perfectly natural! Just stop putting a label on it and just enjoy what you're doing. There's nothing to feel guilty about. It's just what gets you off. We all have our little quirks, and it is absolutely nothing to be ashamed about.

As far as the meets go - work out what it is that you require from the meet. Figure out what your ground rules are, and make them absolutely plain when you're arranging. Then you will stay within your comfort zone and ultimately enjoy the experience. However, if you do continue to plan meets and never follow through, that's cool too. It's whatever you feel comfortable doing. Don't push yourself into anything for anyone. Even your own testosterone fuelled brain! Lol

Excellent response.
 

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I'm straight or Bi and have a girlfriend but when I watch porn I like to watch 'blowjob porns' or I really like to watch 'oral creampie' videos. Non of these videos are gay, they all have woman giving the blowjob with cum running out of there mouth. I get so Horny Thats all I want to do it give a blowjob and get cum in my mouth. I've givin blowjobs before when I was younger and love it but once I cum I feel so disgusted with myself. I would always make sure to get him off first. Now I get these crazy urges and keep setting up meetings but end up cuming at home and feel so stupid for taking time to set up a meeting. Any advice ?


I would say you have some secret compartment in your brain where you feel ashamed of finding men attractive still. Either that, or you REALLY hate the taste of cum...honestly, I have found giving blow jobs to be an aquired taste, even as a guy who grew up as gay.
 

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Maybe the OP should enjoy the play and actually not get off. What happens if you just leave after a good evening. Maybe you just need to changes the pattern of your post cum blues.