..... but i couldn't, I was in the middle of doing it and I was like, "Wow.... this would hurt. This is stupid lol"
But this rush of sudden sadness last night was really overwhelming. I've been missing my girlfriend. I haven't seen her in a week because she lives in a different city. I know you say its only a week, but it still hurts like hell. I hate that. I wish my heart wasn't so dependent on her. But it is. I tried to cheat and that didn't work.
We was skyping each other and I upset her because of my attempt. I didn't mean to... I just needed a distraction..... to distract me from missing her..... That stressed me out, among apply to Med School, and among other things.
Then it hit me. I have sex like how people use drugs, alcohol, food, and other crap to distract them. I'm horny because of my hormones, but its also augmented because of my relationship with stress. I think thats why I work out so much too. They just distract me man. Realizing this, the origin of my compulsion, helps a lil now. I just tell myself to do something different. Knowing it that'll pass assures me a lil bit.
Her company distracts me..... but I don't want to be like that. I just want to take my stress away...... please don't cut yourself.....
But this rush of sudden sadness last night was really overwhelming. I've been missing my girlfriend. I haven't seen her in a week because she lives in a different city. I know you say its only a week, but it still hurts like hell. I hate that. I wish my heart wasn't so dependent on her. But it is. I tried to cheat and that didn't work.
We was skyping each other and I upset her because of my attempt. I didn't mean to... I just needed a distraction..... to distract me from missing her..... That stressed me out, among apply to Med School, and among other things.
Then it hit me. I have sex like how people use drugs, alcohol, food, and other crap to distract them. I'm horny because of my hormones, but its also augmented because of my relationship with stress. I think thats why I work out so much too. They just distract me man. Realizing this, the origin of my compulsion, helps a lil now. I just tell myself to do something different. Knowing it that'll pass assures me a lil bit.
Her company distracts me..... but I don't want to be like that. I just want to take my stress away...... please don't cut yourself.....