So I'm writing this as a sort of desperate plea for help. I should preface this, I'm bi curious, and only three people know, but they are all under the assumption that I "fell out of that phase of my life" and don't know that I'm still interested in men. I recently got into a relationship with a girl who I really like, she's amazing, and I can see myself being with her for a long time. Over September and October, there was a guy I talked to, and he is bi, I really liked him, and we seemed to hit it off pretty well. We share a ton of interests, and he's extremely attractive, also someone that I could see myself being with (provided that I ever came out) One day, however, he kinda just dropped out of contact and I haven't heard from him since Thanksgiving, and I've tried to get a hold of him, but just can't seem to reach him. We didn't have any fights, and I know I didn't say anything to make him angry, but I know he got really busy so I kept making excuses about the situation. So that brings me to the present. I'm with this girl, and I really like her, but I still have it for this guy I talked to for those few months. I'm afraid right now, for a number of things. 1)I'm afraid that my still liking him will end up driving a wedge between me and my girlfriend that doesn't need to be there. 2) I'm afraid that I'm going to go down the "straight road" and someday I'm going to look back and think I made a mistake. 3) I'm afraid that I might just risk it all to be with this guy, ruin my relationship with this girl, because her last boyfriend cheated on her after he proposed to her, I'll ruin my relationship with my family (as they are extremely religious and homophobic) or that this guy totally has lost interest in me and I create all this chaos for nothing. There are so many conflicting thoughts going on in my head right now, but there's no one in my life that I can talk to about any of this. So if you have any advice at all, I'd love to hear it. Thanks.