OK--this is JUST a rant. If it had been an actual problem worthy of your time and consideration, the authorities would have given you proper instruction...
Coming up on the six month anniversary of the final breakup of a 7 year relationship, the one that I gave my last hurrah and invested money, time, and emotion into, more of each than ever before in my life. Ironically, the date will coincide almost exactly with my 46th birthday. While I have suffered from depression as long as I can remember emotionally (about 5), I am usually able to find SOMETHING to kick me out of it to a more "normal" level for me, usually within a couple of weeks. I can usually find SOMETHING positive to hang on to, to build on. Not this time. I get up, I go to work, and while I have maintained productivity at work, I know I'm becoming shorter tempered, and being less productive than I could be, despite the recent accolades I have gotten. I come home, and go pretty much directly to bed. I may watch television, or get on the net, or read, but nothing really active, nothing that promotes growth. I need to find something external to build on, because everything I had interally is shattered. Work isn't enough. Serving the needs of others isn;t enough. Helping others isn't enough. I really need something positive to come back to ME, and it just isn't happening at all. But something has ot break, and soon. I just wonder if it is going to be me....
Ok--end of rant, end of self pity. Or at least, the end of it in this thread.:tongue:
Coming up on the six month anniversary of the final breakup of a 7 year relationship, the one that I gave my last hurrah and invested money, time, and emotion into, more of each than ever before in my life. Ironically, the date will coincide almost exactly with my 46th birthday. While I have suffered from depression as long as I can remember emotionally (about 5), I am usually able to find SOMETHING to kick me out of it to a more "normal" level for me, usually within a couple of weeks. I can usually find SOMETHING positive to hang on to, to build on. Not this time. I get up, I go to work, and while I have maintained productivity at work, I know I'm becoming shorter tempered, and being less productive than I could be, despite the recent accolades I have gotten. I come home, and go pretty much directly to bed. I may watch television, or get on the net, or read, but nothing really active, nothing that promotes growth. I need to find something external to build on, because everything I had interally is shattered. Work isn't enough. Serving the needs of others isn;t enough. Helping others isn't enough. I really need something positive to come back to ME, and it just isn't happening at all. But something has ot break, and soon. I just wonder if it is going to be me....
Ok--end of rant, end of self pity. Or at least, the end of it in this thread.:tongue: