I always swallow my husband's cum; he has never swallowed mine. Do I feel rejected? Well, I wouldn't use a word that harsh to describe my feelings about it. But yeah, I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me. He gives me the best head I've ever had and is the only lover who's ever made me cum from oral, but when the big moment happens, he always takes my penis out of his mouth and finishes me off with his hand. Sometimes he will lick some of it off my penis and stomach afterward, so I know he doesn't have an aversion to it.
A few times I've actually started cumming while he was sucking me without letting him know, so I have gotten a few spurts in but never the full load. About a month ago or so, after I had done this, he told me, "You know, that wasn't so bad." I got excited and asked, "So are you saying you want to swallow it now?" He said, "Maybe." I thought, Yes! This is the moment I've been waiting for! But alas, no. He still gives me phenomenal BJs, but at the crucial moment he goes back to the usual routine.
It's not the be-all, end-all of our relationship, of course. He's still a phenomenal lover, and honestly, I'm happiest when I'm sucking his penis and he's feeding me his delicious cum, which I can never seem to get enough of. But deep down inside, I do wish he would reciprocate.