I think your male partners dont care if you are actually attracted to them as long as you are hard and cums like a fountain lol.
I’m not attracted to them at all.
their relationship is with my cock.
a very demanding cock. They are imprinted with it, subservient to it and hopefully addicted to it. I expect them to continually improve and become very in tune with it.
I am highly sexual, can orgasm w.o ejaculating—-but sometimes I tell cocksucker he’s in charge—I want to be edged for beaucoup long time—-I want cock brought within about 3 heartbeats of ejaculatory inevitability—them de-escalated, taper down—-then back up—over and over. If long time cocksucker can not get in tune—well, poor example—-wouldn’t be long time
my cock and balls are kept groomed by those who service. Jelqing, stretching exercises, scrotum , balls manipulation, etc is done twice a day—-eastern training—-all my life—not really a sexual thing—-never used as organisn or ejaculatory—-more like training, maintenance—-anyhow, almost always now performed by my cocksuckers