So, I'm sure this is going to sound pretty strange, but I'm realizing that I have a little bit of a premature ejaculation fetish. it's this totally bizarre? thinking about it, i guess it basically comes from sort of reliving my early sexual experiences. when i lost my virginity, i remember being so nervous and excited and then the MOMENT i started to slip in i lost control. i wasn't even all the way in yet and it was over. i remember realizing what had happend and trying to cover it up by just thrusting away, but i was soft in about 10 seconds and it was pretty clear what had happened. it was terrible . . . but something about the embarrassment of it was exciting, and it sort of became a self-perpetuating routine. every time i was about to have sex, i already KNEW how it was going to end and as we were about to start, something about knowing that in 10 or 20 or 30 (or 5!) seconds I'd hear a gasp and a giggle and another "oh my god, you didn't just come did you?" turned me on even more and it would be over even faster. and of course having a big penis, meant that there, in a way, was even more pressure. the girl was always looking forward to it and then . . . now i can last much longer (i don't know if i'll ever have EXCELLENT stamina), but with new partners i still have a hard time maintaining control. I should mention that I ALWAYS make sure to take care of my partner's orgasms FIRST orally so she won't be disappointed. even when i'm comfortable with someone and can last longer, it's still have the occasional slip up and then it's exciting to have a red-faced, impossibly fast, rerun of those early times.