My periods are usually on the clockwork. I normally just have the case of the grump and bitchiness. I normally get binge cravings, some mild cramps and tender breasts and tiredness.
And this month, I was not on time. This time I was two weeks late. I was incredibly more tired than usual. There was absolutely no PMS symptoms until Monday, then Monday, i had the serious case of blah. Still did not have my period. I woke up and just started crying. I told myself to snap out of it, and go take a shower. I broke down in the shower and for some reason contemplated hurting myself (cutting). I cried hard. Contemplated suicide, until I told myself that I have it good, and am content with my life, considering having just gotten out of a relationship well over a month and half ago, leaving my ex for someone else (but let's not go there at all since that is not the issue here.)
Got out of the shower and put on my make up. Felt good. Got dressed and headed out the door to work, and then on the bus, I just started crying again. People were asking me if I was okay. I snapped at someone and said "What the fuck do you care? You don't know me." I decided I was in no emotional state to go to work. Doubled back home. Bought some food. Binged on a bag of chips. Called into work and said I was not feeling well. Slept until the afternoon and watched some movies. Decided to go to the doctor, and got a stupid male doctor, who just told me to go pee in a cup and do blood work. Did that. Went home. Tried to go about the rest of the evening doing things. Worked out. Felt great.
Tuesday - Was feeling blah. Called out to work. Cried a good portion in the morning over nothing and over things I normally don't generate a lot of reaction to.
This morning, period came on. Cramps are so bad that I need to curl up in a ball. Back aches so bad. Breasts are so tender. My head has a raging hardon...er...I mean headache... I have the munchies (stomach growling). I tried to eat crackers to settle the growlies). I'm so bloated I look pregnant and it hurts to stand. Its that bad I won't go to work. I took two Midols the night before and it didn't do much. Woke up again at 3 am to take Advil (Extra strength). And I've already changed tampons twice in the last hour which isn't normal. In the process of changing tampon, a HUGE clump of blood at least 1 cup (250 mL) slooshed out of me. I felt my vagina expand to allow the passage of this clump. And this is NOT normal period for me. Normally, it starts out mild bleeding and dull brown.
I know my body. My PMS symptoms are predictable and my period is like a clockwork. And my body is NOT normal for this month, and is just OFF. Something just is not right with my body right at this moment.
/rant
And this month, I was not on time. This time I was two weeks late. I was incredibly more tired than usual. There was absolutely no PMS symptoms until Monday, then Monday, i had the serious case of blah. Still did not have my period. I woke up and just started crying. I told myself to snap out of it, and go take a shower. I broke down in the shower and for some reason contemplated hurting myself (cutting). I cried hard. Contemplated suicide, until I told myself that I have it good, and am content with my life, considering having just gotten out of a relationship well over a month and half ago, leaving my ex for someone else (but let's not go there at all since that is not the issue here.)
Got out of the shower and put on my make up. Felt good. Got dressed and headed out the door to work, and then on the bus, I just started crying again. People were asking me if I was okay. I snapped at someone and said "What the fuck do you care? You don't know me." I decided I was in no emotional state to go to work. Doubled back home. Bought some food. Binged on a bag of chips. Called into work and said I was not feeling well. Slept until the afternoon and watched some movies. Decided to go to the doctor, and got a stupid male doctor, who just told me to go pee in a cup and do blood work. Did that. Went home. Tried to go about the rest of the evening doing things. Worked out. Felt great.
Tuesday - Was feeling blah. Called out to work. Cried a good portion in the morning over nothing and over things I normally don't generate a lot of reaction to.
This morning, period came on. Cramps are so bad that I need to curl up in a ball. Back aches so bad. Breasts are so tender. My head has a raging hardon...er...I mean headache... I have the munchies (stomach growling). I tried to eat crackers to settle the growlies). I'm so bloated I look pregnant and it hurts to stand. Its that bad I won't go to work. I took two Midols the night before and it didn't do much. Woke up again at 3 am to take Advil (Extra strength). And I've already changed tampons twice in the last hour which isn't normal. In the process of changing tampon, a HUGE clump of blood at least 1 cup (250 mL) slooshed out of me. I felt my vagina expand to allow the passage of this clump. And this is NOT normal period for me. Normally, it starts out mild bleeding and dull brown.
I know my body. My PMS symptoms are predictable and my period is like a clockwork. And my body is NOT normal for this month, and is just OFF. Something just is not right with my body right at this moment.
/rant
