This is kind of a late night rant. For argument sake I say I'm bisexual but fact of the matter is I can't decide for the life of me what I am. A lot of the time I see something and I think to myself, wow I really like that and I really do. But other times, it's just eh. I don't know if it's the heat of the moment of what, but I'm awfully confused. Maybe I'm just getting older and my sex drive is depleting?!?!?! That would be terrible. Recently, I messaged some guys online and I got a response from one and we've been talking and exchanging pictures. He has a really great body and seems like a nice enough guy. With that said, earlier tonight I met two new girls through my friends. However, one of them is engaged, and unfortunately the one I liked the most, but they were both hot, friendly and seemed into me. Considering I've never really had girls breaking down my front door to be with me I often find myself thinking, am I supposed to be with a guy....or am I supposed to be how I am, rarely meeting girls, and one day bam....I'll meet my future wife, get married and start a family. Is this guy I randomly met online, who I haven't even met in person yet, basically because I rarely trust people, eventually going to be someone I live with and have a relationship with? Or will I eventually get married to a beautiful woman and have children? And have I already met her? I just wish there were more certainties in life besides death.