Basically I'm feeling a bit 'low' tonight. I was okay til my ex text me. She texts randomly, when she feels like it. I think just to tease me and see if I still want her. Which of course, I do. I replied and she didn't reply back...and I really wanted someone to talk to. Because I have no one to talk to here and I like (or used to like) how funny and witty she was. Something happened today too which also upset me. Anyway the main thing is I have a lot of pent up emotions and unresolved issues...and she makes me feel as close to normal as I ever have. Or used to. It annoys me that she toys with me and doesn't want to be with me. I want to be with her because she makes me happy :smile:. I know that's flawed thinking. So, a lot of things happened to me when I was 15/16 that have pretty much fucked me up. I was just wondering if anyone has advice or perhaps some compassion for me? Therapy would probably be good but I'd get loads of shit from my family. They expect me to be 'normal' and say 'what's wrong with you' etc etc. I don't think they realise how first of all not having a father, then being told he's dead, then being told he's alive, then being told he's 'this man'. And each time, all your friends and everyone at school knowing about it, taking the piss etc... There are other 'events' beside that but that's a main one. So to sum up: I want my ex but she doesn't want me. Which I suppose is understandable. Also, I think I need some therapy/counselling or just some tips on how to 'cope' or something. *sigh* It would be comforting to know that I'm not the only one who feels like a complete mess sometimes.