Oh boy. I've been friends with this.. girl for 2 years now. It started off rocky... I've heard from a number of people that I'm the most unique person they know (yeah everyone likes to believe that) and she had no idea what to think of me, originally. Went to a festival together back in 2008 and fucked one of her friends (which she thought was hilarious) but we started to grow closer after that. Went to another festival together in 2009 (just the two of us), shared a tent and grew even closer together. THEN we started doing psychedelic drugs together and then we grew EVEN CLOSER together. I sorta consider her my best friend but.. 'not really'. This sorta turned into the type of 'friendship' that I believe is kinda a gray area. I've recently gotten out of a relationship and she did about 4 months ago and we've sorta been.. getting 'intimate' in the most innocent of ways. Lots of cuddling, kisses on the cheek/head, spooning (where she grabs my hand and holds it close to her), sleeping in the same bed. It's been a gray area to me for some months now but despite of that, I got into a relationship with another girl and she knew everything about it and she told me she'd almost slept with some guy while on vacation; we basically tell each other tons of friend stuff. Now, she's never given me the impression that she's even the slightest bit attracted to me physically.. quite the contrary actually (and I'm kinda muscular and she's really into skinny guys, I've got chest hair and I know she's reallly not into that.. etc), but I still feel like she and I are in this odd gray area where it's neither platonic nor non-platonic. And we both kinda said in so many words that there's 'sexual tension'. Other than all of this 'gray area' stuff, we read each other like an open book. We know each other through and through... Now I'm seeing her tomorrow (dragging her along to my DJ gig tomorrow) to catch up after her vacation and I just don't know. Should I act on what I perceive this 'grayness' or could I ruin a friendship with advancements? We're doing E together soon, which itself could be a push in that direction but I don't want to take advantage of a certain situation if that makes any sense. I care so much for her, but I have no idea what do with this 'gray area'. And I do have female friends I'm 100% platonic with (most of my friends are girls). Help?