I have been recalling some of my preSPH fetish experiences when I have been close to a sexual hook up with a woman but never got past the early dating stage or serious flirtations because of my tiny penis.
Of course when I suffered these disappointments, embarrassments/ humiliations they were absolutely devastating with no sph compensation - no arousing aftermath. However they are all very exciting now and wish I had my sph fetish back when they occurred.
There are three historical rejections that are currently providing masturbation material for a couple of weeks now.
Without giving their full names but not putting up fake names ( it makes posting the memory more enticing even if extremely unlikely that there is a chance one or all of the women may see this post and know who I am).
I fantasize about them knowing I am playing with my tiny cock while recalling my humilation.
In no particular order :
Debbie H. was a keyboard player in a bar band who I managed to go out on three dates with and I was reasonably certain that bedding her was on the cards.
Unfortunately at a pool party some drunken prankstere decided to yank down my swim trunks in front of some girls just after I got out of the pool. One on them was Debbie. I pulled up my trunks as quick as I could and fled.
I kind of kept a low profile in the shadows but we crossed paths sometime later. She made no disparaging remarks about my baby dick ( beyond my usual small size as I had suffered shrinkage)
She had thought I had left the party all together because of my obvious embarrassment and told me she knew the guy and it was a common and boring party trick he liked to do.
For the next few weeks she kept on making excuses everytime I called her for a date . Finally we went out for a drink and she told me face to face that she didnt want to go out anymore because an old boyfriend had come back into her life. ( turned out that was a lie but I didnt find that out until a month or so later) She gave me the still wanted to be friends speech ( which I had heard before and more than a few tims since) Basically I crossed paths with her on occasion in bars or at parties etc but that was it.
Subsequently I heard through the grapevine that she had confessed to some of her female friends that she broke up with me because she couldnt get past the shock of seeing my tiny penis and she lost all sexual interest.
Kim R. - Long time friend of one of my sisters. We crossed paths a fair few times and got on very well. She was always in a relationship though and was the type that never spends much time between relationships ( even overlapping) . If and when a relationship was going stale or seriously imploding she tended to seek another one.
She was a lovely woman otherwise but she absolutely needed a high level of sexual stimulation which tended to lead her to a certain level of unfaithfulness if the sex was too routine, or had lost its mojo. She also ( as I was to discover) a bonafide size queen. Average size cocks were fine if they were good swordsmen but she always craved more. She is stimulated just by the look of a big dick and conversely unimpressed by smaller ones. Generally a turn off.
(All of this I found out after my crash and burn with her as we actually remained friends and she confessed quite candidly why we wouldnt have worked out)
Anyway after years of flirting with each other but never hooking up and consumating the attraction she was in the process of ending a bad relationship (in this case the sex was good but he became a bit of a monster and seriously started mistreating her outsidevof the bedroom). After a night out with a large group of mutual friends she pleaded with me to sneak away with her. We went back to another friends place with him and his girlfriend.
We hung out for a while but then they left us to a sofabed and retired to their room. It was all going swimmingly as she immediately practically pounced on me. After a fast and furious strip off I barely got a chance to lust over her nakedness before she shrieked in horror at the sight of my still semi flaccid and very tiny cock. I quickly got hard despite this but that finished off any chance I was going to be fucking her. She was almost in a state of shock staring at my little dink which was now starting to shrivel up. She was re- dressing herself almost as speedily as she had previously defrocked. I was doing the same. She was partially trying to be appologetic for her reaction whilst attempting to explain why she was so suddenly put off the sex. A larger broader picture of her sexual preferences and desires would come some time later but then and there it was abundantly clear my endowment was a deal breaker.
