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Reading this can upset some and I can’t think of a way to share what has been stated to be a real story other than what was described to me. Here is what was sent to me:
Dear ______, I have a confession and do have shame about it but also is relevant to the LPSG website. Maybe my compulsion needed that support!
I grew up in a relatively small town in Indiana. One of our neighbors had a young adult son, Alan, who was for lack of a better politically correct term now-a-days, was “Slow.” He was a very nice guy and very functional but didn’t exactly understand social norms. He would play basketball in the neighborhood with some of us and although he really couldn’t’ dribble the ball well or have the best coordination he was again functional enough to play. Some kids would make fun of him or tease him although he never understood that was happening toward him. I liked him and sometimes I might take him to a movie, a restaurant, or some activity out of friendship and perhaps some sympathy. Unfortunately, there were mean people as well who would make fun of him which I of course would witness even though Alan was oblivious to it.
There were two 18 year old girls in the neighborhood who often would tease him. They might pretend to throw something at him and laugh when he was slow to respond. Or, they might make faces, or other silly things. Again, Alan never understood they were anything else than sweet although there were occasions where they could be nice to him as well.
One day during the summer we went to a park to practice just shooting a basketball. The girls were there as well in another part of the park and quite frankly I don’t know what they were doing as the park was empty. Maybe they were jogging or practicing for something but really I can’t say what that was. Anyway, it suddenly started raining very heavily and we ran to a shelter in the park to get out of the rain. The girls were already there so they were not wet. It was hot but Alan and I were soaking wet from the rain. It was just the 4 of us. The rain continued to come down heavily along with lightning and thunder. “You better get out of those wet clothes” the girls laughed. I thought they had a point and so I tried to take my shirt off to squeeze the excess water off. But, because it was wet, I had a hard time pulling it over my head. Suddenly, I heard one girl say, “Holy Shit” and the other was laughing loudly. I got the shirt off and looked to see what was going on. Alan had pulled off his basketball shorts and underwear moving his wet clothes as they suggested, and hanging off of him was the biggest penis I have ever seen. I know it will sound like I am exaggerating but hanging down had to be 8 thick inches of an uncut penis with the skin slightly over the head so you could tell it was completely flaccid. “Alan” I exclaimed, “Pull up your shorts!” Both girls said in direct unison, “No, don’t, let us see it.” Then they started conversing with one another about his penis. “Have you ever seen anything so big? Holy shit that would kill me and it is not even hard. It’s like three times the size of my brother. You have seen your brother naked? Of course not like on purpose though. Have you ever seen any guy that is that size? No, I fooled around with Jessie and he showed me his and it was half of that. Then they looked at me and laughed, “Let’s see yours.” I told them no and again they laughed and said, “That’s because I bet you have a little weensy one especially next to that.” One of the girls reached out and touched Alan’s penis while the other one laughed but chastised her at first but then encouraged her. The same girl feeling touching his penis then grasped Alan’s penis pulling on it and I think we were all a bit stunned when she did that but also stunned how it stretched out a good two inches or more beyond the 8” or so of length soft. This was some penis, huge, long, and thick. I had never seen such a big penis in person, in a gym, etc. I absolutely felt jealous and intimidated on how much bigger I knew what we were all seeing was compared with mine. “Feel how heavy it is” the one girl holding his penis said to the other. “I don’t want to touch it. No, feel it.” The other girl grasped it in the middle of the shaft so half was below her hand and half above. It looked like a big snake dangling in her hand. “It is heavy” she agreed She then laughed once again and started pulling the foreskin off the head and back on. “Come out of your shell” she laughed. However, this clearly had an impact on Alan as his penis very quickly began erecting. Meanwhile he just stood there with his much endowed organ growing and standing straight out.
“Stop it” I demanded to them both. But, in truth I was equally fascinated, stunned, and curious to see how big he would be and soon the 3 of us witnessed his huge fully erect penis. Honestly, I had an overwhelming feeling that surprised me to want to touch it as well. Alan just stood there with a slight grin on his face but oblivious it seemed that there was anything wrong or odd with what was occurring. His penis stood out hard and the head had grown in size that the retracted foreskin could not go back up over it. The head was huge like a small apple and the entire penis had to be close to 10” long although I know that sounds unlikely. I can only say it is how it looked. Both girls were rubbing it and one said to me, “Take yours out” which there was no way and again told them to stop but they just laughed. Suddenly, Alan started shooting cum and they quickly let go and both laughed as it then dribbled out instead. Alan just stood there with his huge cock starting to go back down although I swear it hardly lost any length. I told Alan to pull up his pants which he finally did. The rain had slowed but perhaps now out of embarrassment or excitement, the girls suddenly ran off. I scolded Alan and tried to explain to him that he should not allow girls to do something like that again. He had difficulty understanding because he kept saying it felt so good. I told him never to tell anyone.
That evening when I got in bed to go to sleep I kept picturing Alan’s huge penis and started jacking my cock wishing I had anything even remotely close to his size. It made me angry that he could be so much bigger than me and I looked down at my erect cock sort of disgusted at how much smaller it was than a person who would understand the overabundance of what nature gave him. I thought maybe that was somehow a balance for what he was otherwise deprived of. But, I climaxed thinking about Alan’s cock and wanting to have touched it just like the girls did.
What never occurred to me was the girls would start telling others about how big Alan’s cock was. I don’t know how they explained seeing it, but within a week there were several other girls who I observed pestering Alan to show them his penis. Fortunately, I was there to stop him and the girls were angry of course at me. I told Alan to come with me to my house to get away from them.
Now, as I said, all of this is going to sound bad and retrospectively I of course do feel ashamed of myself for taking advantage of Alan’s “Slow” understanding of the world. We were in my bedroom and I was explaining to Alan that he can’t just take out his penis and show it to girls just because they ask. He wanted to know why not because it had felt good when the girls had touched it. I hated myself but I started to lead the conversation to where I knew I was headed to see his cock again and it wasn’t right. But, I couldn’t help myself.
I told Alan girls could do many things with him and it could feel good but he needed to know how girls would like him to use his penis with them. “What am I supposed to do” Alan asked. “Do you know how babies are made, do you know what fucking is”, I asked Alan. Yes, he said, “the boy puts his thing into the girl and it makes a baby.” I asked Alan did he want a girl to have a baby of his. I am not sure he understood that a baby would be his though. He shrugged his shoulders. I said to him Alan there are a lot of things that feel good did your mother ever talk to you about sex (his parents were divorced). No, Alan said, just Scott his (older) brother told him things. But, Alan couldn’t really elaborate. Alan, I asked, Do you sometime touch yourself down there? He responded, “I am not supposed to.” Alan, but do you? He was silent. Alan, I said, “It’s OK; I touch myself it is what guys do to relieve themselves and pressure. It feels good, doesn’t it?” Alan looked at me and said, “You do?” “Yes. Alan it’s normal. It’s also normal for girls and guys to have sex but there are ways to make sure you don’t have a baby.” Alan was now fully attentive to our conversation and I was feeling very turned on which was bad because I knew I was started to lose rational control and my horniness was taking over instead.
“Alan, when you touch yourself, how do you do it?” Alan looked at me obviously slightly embarrassed as I assumed he must have been told not to do so even though obviously he had admitted to doing so simply by his silence. “Alan, show me how you touch yourself” “I am not supposed to” Alan repeated. “Alan, I will show you how I do it and you show me.” Alan and I were standing there and I purposely slowly unbuckled my belt so Alan could see I was lowering my pants for him to do the same. Alan matched my tempo but was following my lead. When we finally stripped standing face to face the difference in our penises was immediately self-evident. Now, with mine exposed next to Alan, I was excited and fully erect whereas he still was of course with that long enormous thick penis still soft. I looked half his size. Alan looked at my penis curiously and matter of fact asked, “Does yours get bigger?” Now I was the one embarrassed. All those times I had felt superior because of his “slow” nature were in total reverse. Here was someone so much bigger and better endowed that I could never ever even begin to compete in maleness or experience the reaction those girls had to it, have girls curious to see my penis because of its size like was occurring for Alan, and of course being able to fuck a girl in any remote way that a penis of his size would do. I wanted this penis to be hanging off of me, it inside drove me crazy that Alan had the penis I would have killed for. I had no control over myself and reached out and took his penis in my hand. The girls were right it was heavy which only made if feel so much more powerful. The flesh easily moved back and forth and I watched the foreskin slide with my motions. Alan said nothing but similar to with the girls his penis was quickly expanding and becoming fully erect. Now that I held it my feelings were being overwhelmed with desire and lust.
“Alan, did any girl tell you about oral sex?” Alan shook his head no. “It’s a good way to not have a baby and let a girl suck you instead,” I explained. Alan looked at me inquisitively even as I was slowly jacking his cock. “The girl sucks on it” he asked. “Here I will show you, it’s OK.” I got immediately on my knees and aimed his penis with my hand right to my mouth. I had never sucked a guy before but I thought this must be what it really is like for a woman if she is horny and is with a guy having a penis like this. I couldn’t not resist and wanted to feel that powerful maleness in my mouth. I looked up at Alan and said, “I promise it will not hurt and you will like it.” I slid the big penis into my mouth and immediately was overwhelmed with the sensations. It was hard yet soft in the flesh, it moved about, and I curiously sucked slightly on the foreskin gently pulling it forward to run my tongue inside it. Alan moaned so I knew he was enjoying it already. However, he started thrusting his penis in a fucking motion in my mouth and I almost choked as it went down my throat unexpectedly. I removed his penis from my mouth looking up at him and just instructed to slow down and let me show him how a girl does it. I then began licking his penis underneath, sliding it, and then gathering up a lot of saliva and taking as much of it in my mouth and going up and down with my hand and mouth together. I will say it was one of the best sensations I have ever felt sucking such a big organ. However, perhaps with only about 30 seconds of doing so and without warning a huge spurt of cum shot into my mouth so hard it hit my throat and I gagged. But, more was shooting and for whatever reason I didn’t’ want to stop and I let him cum fully in my mouth swallowing as fast as I could. I know I had taken advantage of him but it was so fulfilling an experience. I perhaps before then never knew my gay feelings because I wanted that big cock to fuck me too. Even today I can’t explain it except that seeing a big penis like that makes the desire for sex overwhelming. However, nothing else happened and we got dressed.
Unfortunately, after this experience with Alan, things drifted apart. Did he tell his family? Was it my guilt? I can’t know for sure. The following year I moved away and have never been back. I did learn surprisingly that Alan eventually got married. I sometimes fantasize about what his wife looks like and living with getting sex with such a big penis like his. However, I got the impression she might have been somewhat in a similar functional capacity as Alan. So, she may not even know how superior his penis is to other men. For me, I did eventually find a well-endowed man but nothing matched the penis that Alan possessed.
Dear ______, I have a confession and do have shame about it but also is relevant to the LPSG website. Maybe my compulsion needed that support!
I grew up in a relatively small town in Indiana. One of our neighbors had a young adult son, Alan, who was for lack of a better politically correct term now-a-days, was “Slow.” He was a very nice guy and very functional but didn’t exactly understand social norms. He would play basketball in the neighborhood with some of us and although he really couldn’t’ dribble the ball well or have the best coordination he was again functional enough to play. Some kids would make fun of him or tease him although he never understood that was happening toward him. I liked him and sometimes I might take him to a movie, a restaurant, or some activity out of friendship and perhaps some sympathy. Unfortunately, there were mean people as well who would make fun of him which I of course would witness even though Alan was oblivious to it.
There were two 18 year old girls in the neighborhood who often would tease him. They might pretend to throw something at him and laugh when he was slow to respond. Or, they might make faces, or other silly things. Again, Alan never understood they were anything else than sweet although there were occasions where they could be nice to him as well.
One day during the summer we went to a park to practice just shooting a basketball. The girls were there as well in another part of the park and quite frankly I don’t know what they were doing as the park was empty. Maybe they were jogging or practicing for something but really I can’t say what that was. Anyway, it suddenly started raining very heavily and we ran to a shelter in the park to get out of the rain. The girls were already there so they were not wet. It was hot but Alan and I were soaking wet from the rain. It was just the 4 of us. The rain continued to come down heavily along with lightning and thunder. “You better get out of those wet clothes” the girls laughed. I thought they had a point and so I tried to take my shirt off to squeeze the excess water off. But, because it was wet, I had a hard time pulling it over my head. Suddenly, I heard one girl say, “Holy Shit” and the other was laughing loudly. I got the shirt off and looked to see what was going on. Alan had pulled off his basketball shorts and underwear moving his wet clothes as they suggested, and hanging off of him was the biggest penis I have ever seen. I know it will sound like I am exaggerating but hanging down had to be 8 thick inches of an uncut penis with the skin slightly over the head so you could tell it was completely flaccid. “Alan” I exclaimed, “Pull up your shorts!” Both girls said in direct unison, “No, don’t, let us see it.” Then they started conversing with one another about his penis. “Have you ever seen anything so big? Holy shit that would kill me and it is not even hard. It’s like three times the size of my brother. You have seen your brother naked? Of course not like on purpose though. Have you ever seen any guy that is that size? No, I fooled around with Jessie and he showed me his and it was half of that. Then they looked at me and laughed, “Let’s see yours.” I told them no and again they laughed and said, “That’s because I bet you have a little weensy one especially next to that.” One of the girls reached out and touched Alan’s penis while the other one laughed but chastised her at first but then encouraged her. The same girl feeling touching his penis then grasped Alan’s penis pulling on it and I think we were all a bit stunned when she did that but also stunned how it stretched out a good two inches or more beyond the 8” or so of length soft. This was some penis, huge, long, and thick. I had never seen such a big penis in person, in a gym, etc. I absolutely felt jealous and intimidated on how much bigger I knew what we were all seeing was compared with mine. “Feel how heavy it is” the one girl holding his penis said to the other. “I don’t want to touch it. No, feel it.” The other girl grasped it in the middle of the shaft so half was below her hand and half above. It looked like a big snake dangling in her hand. “It is heavy” she agreed She then laughed once again and started pulling the foreskin off the head and back on. “Come out of your shell” she laughed. However, this clearly had an impact on Alan as his penis very quickly began erecting. Meanwhile he just stood there with his much endowed organ growing and standing straight out.
“Stop it” I demanded to them both. But, in truth I was equally fascinated, stunned, and curious to see how big he would be and soon the 3 of us witnessed his huge fully erect penis. Honestly, I had an overwhelming feeling that surprised me to want to touch it as well. Alan just stood there with a slight grin on his face but oblivious it seemed that there was anything wrong or odd with what was occurring. His penis stood out hard and the head had grown in size that the retracted foreskin could not go back up over it. The head was huge like a small apple and the entire penis had to be close to 10” long although I know that sounds unlikely. I can only say it is how it looked. Both girls were rubbing it and one said to me, “Take yours out” which there was no way and again told them to stop but they just laughed. Suddenly, Alan started shooting cum and they quickly let go and both laughed as it then dribbled out instead. Alan just stood there with his huge cock starting to go back down although I swear it hardly lost any length. I told Alan to pull up his pants which he finally did. The rain had slowed but perhaps now out of embarrassment or excitement, the girls suddenly ran off. I scolded Alan and tried to explain to him that he should not allow girls to do something like that again. He had difficulty understanding because he kept saying it felt so good. I told him never to tell anyone.
That evening when I got in bed to go to sleep I kept picturing Alan’s huge penis and started jacking my cock wishing I had anything even remotely close to his size. It made me angry that he could be so much bigger than me and I looked down at my erect cock sort of disgusted at how much smaller it was than a person who would understand the overabundance of what nature gave him. I thought maybe that was somehow a balance for what he was otherwise deprived of. But, I climaxed thinking about Alan’s cock and wanting to have touched it just like the girls did.
What never occurred to me was the girls would start telling others about how big Alan’s cock was. I don’t know how they explained seeing it, but within a week there were several other girls who I observed pestering Alan to show them his penis. Fortunately, I was there to stop him and the girls were angry of course at me. I told Alan to come with me to my house to get away from them.
Now, as I said, all of this is going to sound bad and retrospectively I of course do feel ashamed of myself for taking advantage of Alan’s “Slow” understanding of the world. We were in my bedroom and I was explaining to Alan that he can’t just take out his penis and show it to girls just because they ask. He wanted to know why not because it had felt good when the girls had touched it. I hated myself but I started to lead the conversation to where I knew I was headed to see his cock again and it wasn’t right. But, I couldn’t help myself.
I told Alan girls could do many things with him and it could feel good but he needed to know how girls would like him to use his penis with them. “What am I supposed to do” Alan asked. “Do you know how babies are made, do you know what fucking is”, I asked Alan. Yes, he said, “the boy puts his thing into the girl and it makes a baby.” I asked Alan did he want a girl to have a baby of his. I am not sure he understood that a baby would be his though. He shrugged his shoulders. I said to him Alan there are a lot of things that feel good did your mother ever talk to you about sex (his parents were divorced). No, Alan said, just Scott his (older) brother told him things. But, Alan couldn’t really elaborate. Alan, I asked, Do you sometime touch yourself down there? He responded, “I am not supposed to.” Alan, but do you? He was silent. Alan, I said, “It’s OK; I touch myself it is what guys do to relieve themselves and pressure. It feels good, doesn’t it?” Alan looked at me and said, “You do?” “Yes. Alan it’s normal. It’s also normal for girls and guys to have sex but there are ways to make sure you don’t have a baby.” Alan was now fully attentive to our conversation and I was feeling very turned on which was bad because I knew I was started to lose rational control and my horniness was taking over instead.
“Alan, when you touch yourself, how do you do it?” Alan looked at me obviously slightly embarrassed as I assumed he must have been told not to do so even though obviously he had admitted to doing so simply by his silence. “Alan, show me how you touch yourself” “I am not supposed to” Alan repeated. “Alan, I will show you how I do it and you show me.” Alan and I were standing there and I purposely slowly unbuckled my belt so Alan could see I was lowering my pants for him to do the same. Alan matched my tempo but was following my lead. When we finally stripped standing face to face the difference in our penises was immediately self-evident. Now, with mine exposed next to Alan, I was excited and fully erect whereas he still was of course with that long enormous thick penis still soft. I looked half his size. Alan looked at my penis curiously and matter of fact asked, “Does yours get bigger?” Now I was the one embarrassed. All those times I had felt superior because of his “slow” nature were in total reverse. Here was someone so much bigger and better endowed that I could never ever even begin to compete in maleness or experience the reaction those girls had to it, have girls curious to see my penis because of its size like was occurring for Alan, and of course being able to fuck a girl in any remote way that a penis of his size would do. I wanted this penis to be hanging off of me, it inside drove me crazy that Alan had the penis I would have killed for. I had no control over myself and reached out and took his penis in my hand. The girls were right it was heavy which only made if feel so much more powerful. The flesh easily moved back and forth and I watched the foreskin slide with my motions. Alan said nothing but similar to with the girls his penis was quickly expanding and becoming fully erect. Now that I held it my feelings were being overwhelmed with desire and lust.
“Alan, did any girl tell you about oral sex?” Alan shook his head no. “It’s a good way to not have a baby and let a girl suck you instead,” I explained. Alan looked at me inquisitively even as I was slowly jacking his cock. “The girl sucks on it” he asked. “Here I will show you, it’s OK.” I got immediately on my knees and aimed his penis with my hand right to my mouth. I had never sucked a guy before but I thought this must be what it really is like for a woman if she is horny and is with a guy having a penis like this. I couldn’t not resist and wanted to feel that powerful maleness in my mouth. I looked up at Alan and said, “I promise it will not hurt and you will like it.” I slid the big penis into my mouth and immediately was overwhelmed with the sensations. It was hard yet soft in the flesh, it moved about, and I curiously sucked slightly on the foreskin gently pulling it forward to run my tongue inside it. Alan moaned so I knew he was enjoying it already. However, he started thrusting his penis in a fucking motion in my mouth and I almost choked as it went down my throat unexpectedly. I removed his penis from my mouth looking up at him and just instructed to slow down and let me show him how a girl does it. I then began licking his penis underneath, sliding it, and then gathering up a lot of saliva and taking as much of it in my mouth and going up and down with my hand and mouth together. I will say it was one of the best sensations I have ever felt sucking such a big organ. However, perhaps with only about 30 seconds of doing so and without warning a huge spurt of cum shot into my mouth so hard it hit my throat and I gagged. But, more was shooting and for whatever reason I didn’t’ want to stop and I let him cum fully in my mouth swallowing as fast as I could. I know I had taken advantage of him but it was so fulfilling an experience. I perhaps before then never knew my gay feelings because I wanted that big cock to fuck me too. Even today I can’t explain it except that seeing a big penis like that makes the desire for sex overwhelming. However, nothing else happened and we got dressed.
Unfortunately, after this experience with Alan, things drifted apart. Did he tell his family? Was it my guilt? I can’t know for sure. The following year I moved away and have never been back. I did learn surprisingly that Alan eventually got married. I sometimes fantasize about what his wife looks like and living with getting sex with such a big penis like his. However, I got the impression she might have been somewhat in a similar functional capacity as Alan. So, she may not even know how superior his penis is to other men. For me, I did eventually find a well-endowed man but nothing matched the penis that Alan possessed.