So there's this new show on NBC, The new normal, it's about a gay couple who hires a surrogate, her grandmother is bigot, she has a daughter who is a bit different... it's basically a comedy about marriage, a gay couple, and their lifestyle (what no HIV, orgies and 24 hour partying? OMG!)
I was cooking and I was thinking about life, and maybe it's because I have been watching the show and it inspired me, I'm only 21, I'm in college... I have yet to be come out of the closet or be in a relationship, I honestly feel like being gay is something I'd never change, and I'm not the least bit ashamed of it, but it's a very private and personal thing, I feel so comfortable with it but I can't seem to share this part of me with people, my best friend knows I'm gay, I didn't say the word but she asked "Do you prefer guys or girls?" and I said "I think you know" and then I told her about what I've done sexually and that it was with a guy, and once she asked me what I thought my mother would think when I came out and I think I said something like "I don't know" I was too nervous to give her an answer but I'd have said something like "It's none of her business but I hope she accepts me and I'm proud of who I am, this only concerns me and the person I'll be in a relationship with, I was born this way and it is normal!". It only concerns me because being gay only affects my love and sex life, everything else COULD be exactly the same, if I was straight.
But my point is, the guys on the show are successful in their personal and professional lives, they want a child and they sort of fight ignorance by being themselves and trying to promote it peacefully by speaking their mind and they also feel bad and protective of others, and I feel like that's the life I want for myself, to be successful first, to begin working and feel good about it, to do things for myself, to become the individual I want to be... and after doing that for a year or two and maybe date during that time, I'm sure I'll want to find someone equally successful, and by that I don't mean I'll be a millionaire with a thousand things and incredible achievements and look for the same or even the same exact person as me, I don't need a clone, that's just rubbish, I want someone who probably went to college like me or stated his own business, and I don't feel like this because of money, it changes you, by doing this things, and obviously money matters too. I also want some who is intelligent, sensitive, kind, funny, productive... an all around nice guy, I don't need perfection, I need someone who can inspire me to be better, to do and be more than I am, everyday, someone who lights up my heart, I believe I'll be free enough and in a better place to do that by the time I'm 25, and then I'd like to be in a good place to get married, yeah
, and probably adopt a child by the time I'm 30 something, I know life isn't that easy, but I went from hating school to college, from promoting abortion to wanting to be a father, the only thing I sort of have always been ok with was my sexuality, it's the way I was born, it wasn't a choice, not even accepting it, I didn't because I didn't need to, I have always felt this was, I just didn't feel like being with a men when I was a child, but I saw them in a way that makes me believe I have always been gay, from birth.
It's funny how I also have all this ideas about what I think raising my child will be like, obviously it is a joint venture but still, there are some things I feel very strongly about like being bilingual, I am writing this in english but when I wake up I'm thinking in a completely different language and then I have to switch to talk with my friends... but still it makes me feel pretty good about myself, and I want that for my child, I only want one, plus college, a sport, arts... I wanna raise him or her to be the person I wish I was and the person I believe I'm becoming, because every day I feel more and more free and capable to explore the world and myself as an individual.
So my question to you, is, how do you envision your life as a gay man? or how is your life? Can gay guys have a "normal" life?
I was cooking and I was thinking about life, and maybe it's because I have been watching the show and it inspired me, I'm only 21, I'm in college... I have yet to be come out of the closet or be in a relationship, I honestly feel like being gay is something I'd never change, and I'm not the least bit ashamed of it, but it's a very private and personal thing, I feel so comfortable with it but I can't seem to share this part of me with people, my best friend knows I'm gay, I didn't say the word but she asked "Do you prefer guys or girls?" and I said "I think you know" and then I told her about what I've done sexually and that it was with a guy, and once she asked me what I thought my mother would think when I came out and I think I said something like "I don't know" I was too nervous to give her an answer but I'd have said something like "It's none of her business but I hope she accepts me and I'm proud of who I am, this only concerns me and the person I'll be in a relationship with, I was born this way and it is normal!". It only concerns me because being gay only affects my love and sex life, everything else COULD be exactly the same, if I was straight.
But my point is, the guys on the show are successful in their personal and professional lives, they want a child and they sort of fight ignorance by being themselves and trying to promote it peacefully by speaking their mind and they also feel bad and protective of others, and I feel like that's the life I want for myself, to be successful first, to begin working and feel good about it, to do things for myself, to become the individual I want to be... and after doing that for a year or two and maybe date during that time, I'm sure I'll want to find someone equally successful, and by that I don't mean I'll be a millionaire with a thousand things and incredible achievements and look for the same or even the same exact person as me, I don't need a clone, that's just rubbish, I want someone who probably went to college like me or stated his own business, and I don't feel like this because of money, it changes you, by doing this things, and obviously money matters too. I also want some who is intelligent, sensitive, kind, funny, productive... an all around nice guy, I don't need perfection, I need someone who can inspire me to be better, to do and be more than I am, everyday, someone who lights up my heart, I believe I'll be free enough and in a better place to do that by the time I'm 25, and then I'd like to be in a good place to get married, yeah
, and probably adopt a child by the time I'm 30 something, I know life isn't that easy, but I went from hating school to college, from promoting abortion to wanting to be a father, the only thing I sort of have always been ok with was my sexuality, it's the way I was born, it wasn't a choice, not even accepting it, I didn't because I didn't need to, I have always felt this was, I just didn't feel like being with a men when I was a child, but I saw them in a way that makes me believe I have always been gay, from birth.It's funny how I also have all this ideas about what I think raising my child will be like, obviously it is a joint venture but still, there are some things I feel very strongly about like being bilingual, I am writing this in english but when I wake up I'm thinking in a completely different language and then I have to switch to talk with my friends... but still it makes me feel pretty good about myself, and I want that for my child, I only want one, plus college, a sport, arts... I wanna raise him or her to be the person I wish I was and the person I believe I'm becoming, because every day I feel more and more free and capable to explore the world and myself as an individual.
So my question to you, is, how do you envision your life as a gay man? or how is your life? Can gay guys have a "normal" life?
