Spent the day with my g/f today. Had a great time. Went driving and looking at new fishing spots (she loves to fish), ate lunch and stopped by a local winery to drink a bottle on the way home. Had a great time and I love her very much. I'm 60 and she is 53. We fucked on a picnic table today, at a very remote spot. Trouble is, I still like occasional cock play, and I have that set up for tomorrow AM.
If not having the urge for cock play a few times a year, I would ask her to marry me and I think we would be great together. We have been on and off together now for 12 years or so. These days it is more on than off, and we spend many days just fishing together as friends, more days than in bed together.
Just don't think it would be fair to be with her, then sneak off for some cock play every couple months. She has told all and said she let a female friend "please her once". Her sister is gay, but she tried it once and not her cup of tea. I've never gotten the balls to say I enjoy trading handjobs with other guys. Somehow, I can't come clean to her and say I like cock play as well. I know she would understand and still be my friend, but I just can't come out of the closet as being bisexual.
It's kind of a bitch when you get older, after suppressing the urges for many years. Thought they would go away, but they never did. I'm just "slightly" bi, because I only get into mutual handjobs, not sucking or anal. Tough just the same. The never ending itch that needs scratched now and then.