I guess this is as good as anywhere. What do you do when you give everything to someone, sacrifice everything to build a future, and they leave? Where do you go, when you;ve lost everything that means everything, and there is no chance of ever finding it again, when you spend your whole life doing your best for others, and time after time after time, all you get is loss, and abandoned, and forgotten? Is all of life loss? Is there anything that is worth loving, or living for, that doesn;t turn on you, or shift to destroy you? Is there any reason to be a decent person, when only the worst people get rewarded for their actions? There are no life answers, only deeper, harder questions, that have no answers, no meaning. When at the end of the day, when night falls, the only thing that is left is loss....
OK--thanks---that helped me get it out of my brain and into words. I'll go back to my usual smart assed self now.