belcurv: My last serious lover was almost the exact same size as me, 7.5 inches by 5.5 around, maybe a little shorter and wider. I was truly in love with him and though it was a stormy relationship, it lasted several years, off and on.
I expressed my "issue" with size at that time, was still struggling to decide if it really mattered, and how much, because I was SO turned on by large cock size in porn, and the few super hung guys I had been with. He kept denying it mattered and I found after while I was able to convince myself, "It's MORE exciting with someone you love" first of all, and specifically came up with reasons like "my own size (our size) is better than bigger sizes because when we're doing it I can FEEL and SEE that THIS size IS more than big enough!" He once told me during one of our off-again periods that he was with a huge lover at that time, and that he preferred not such a big size because "you can do everything with it."
But what finally enabled me to end the relationship, which was moving from merely stormy to almost emotionally abusive on his part, was seeing a guy he kept cheating with in the shower at school... HUGE while soft. I laughed and said, forget this, I'm going to stop kidding myself... I had turned away equally well endowed men to be "faithful" while my bf was screwing around with guys like this. It just PROVED conclusively in my mind that most everyone liked bigger better, so why keep fighting it.
At that point, I took a short road trip with a gay friend who attacked me sexually after two days of nonstop spleen-venting and heart-pouring. He had the smallest cock, but was the cutest guy...but I just couldn't get excited. The night I got back, was picked up by a guy who took me home. I thought, dammit, if he's tiny I'm sorry, I'm not even going to try.
He was nice and big, about nine by six. We had a great night and I decided then and there to forget about kidding myself, that I needed some extra size psychologically to get involved with a guy.
The bf I had just broken up with (and clinched thru this last little fling) had a thing about never being able to get turned on unless the partner had a big torso, like me, muscular... At least I can love guys who are thin or short, etc. Cock size is about the only limitation I seem to have. I see nothing worse about feeling a need for cock size and admitting it. Those who refuse to consider someone like me are missing an opportunity by reading into it that it's the ONLY thing we want. Or that our reasons for appreciating cocksize are so shallow. Ridiculous!
