Wait...I'm confused...is that something approaching tolerance and patience in a topic about religion and politics?
Did you guys switch meds and forget to tell me?
Anyway, I like it, so don't stop whatever you're doing.
I've probably told the tale before, but here goes. Grew up in a scary-angry Southern Baptist church (not a typical example of the breed--at least not at that time) in rural Appalachia and learned my lessons well, both the benignly good and the actively harmful. I learned to be a good boy, of course, and developed a sense of respect and compassion for others but also adopted an ugly way of looking at the world around me. By the time I was finishing high school, I was tremendously disheartened--furious, even--at the hypocrisy, intolerance, and venom I'd been fed and that was so much a part of how I interpreted life's parade. I felt tainted, knowing that I saw "sin" in every other person's motives and actions. To borrow the terminology, I was determined to be redeemed and cleansed of this noxious attitude and worked hard in the coming years to leave all of that behind.
It wasnât easy. I remained angry and resentful at the great beast "religion" and the damage done throughout history to individuals and cultures in its name. I went out of my way to spew my new brand of judgment (same taste, less holy) and scared my family on visits home (and probably enjoyed that a bit too much). Let me tell you, I was a
joy on Christmas break.

Life at the other end of that pendulum swing was just as unfulfilling but I was still getting my fix of feeling "right" while everyone else was wrong, so it felt familiar anyway. Took awhile longer for me to let all of the rage and bitterness go too, but man, is life sweet on the other side of that stuff.
I still believe in a divine creator. I still pray several times a day. But I canât believe in the exclusivity of any one path. Maybe Iâve found mine, but who can outline the path of another?
I support liberal causes and think that a positive vision of humanity is what faith is about. Since moving back to my hometown several years back to care for my elderly parents, itâs been a struggle to find a comfortable niche where I can fit in. Iâve tried several local churches and denominations over the years but always end up frustrated or even angry before a single service is over. I know there are positive, loving congregations out there. I'm sure of it. And while sometimes I think Iâd have better luck in another, more diverse area, I find myself wondering if there may not be a church out there anywhere that I wonât decide is too something or other.
As someone said earlier, I think most members of modern conservative churches are good people at heart who arenât looking to spread hate but are simply follow along with what they are fed (just as I did once upon a time). I think most are doing what they believe is the right thing and not worrying about how their donations are being spent.
I sometimes feel like an alien stranded on Planet Orthodoxy, but I have worked to be accepted without sacrificing my own admittedly-quirky views. (Have to admit, though, that the eccentric radical routine gets me lots of mileage with students sometimes.

) Iâm the youngest and probably most notorious faculty member on campus, and while Iâm generally regarded as a compassionate and âlovableâ guy, Iâm held at armâs length for being so outspoken and âshocking,â which is why your comment, Dee, made me smile:
Originally posted by DeeBlackthorne@Jul 18 2005, 03:56 AM
I bet Monty and Steve and some of the other religious folksâ¦
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Oh, MAN, if my coworkers could only read that one! Would surely confirm for them how messed up the world is after all.
âThis is what counts for religious in the new millennium? Weâre all doomedâ¦â
And Monty deserves better than to have his stalwart faith lumped in with my sorry-assed, doubting, hippie version.
