So last night I'm watching the 2nd episode of the last 8 shows in the Sopranos. I don't mean to spoil it for those who have not watched it, but at the end of the show the character Johnny Sachs dies of lung cancer. Now, that did'nt bother me ; I'm pretty jaded. But It did hit me in a big way. You see the way they portrayed his death was almost identicle to my Father's. About 15 1/2 years ago my father died of lung cancer , gasping for breath like a fish out water, completely out of it, not aware of anyone or anything. It wasn't the most emtionally moving show I've ever seen, in fact they could have made it much more heart wrenching. But needless to say I'm kind of out of it today. My father died long before I ever met my wife, nevermind had kids. I'm bummed out at the fact that my children will never meet such a fine Human Being. Oh well, time to get drunk I guess. I'll always have my memories.