I'm posting this because maybe someone knows how to cope with this feeling, and because I think I'll feel better posting this online to a bunch of strangers so someone(s) will know how I feel, (the friend that I usually talk to about this stuff is on vaction ) . Anyways, I've liked this girl ever since I first met her in junior (11) year of high school. To me she was absoultly perfect, she was smart, quiet, friendly, kind and I thought she was the most beautiful girl I'll ever see. She had a boyfriend but I still don't understand how she didnt have to fight guys off with a stick. So junior year passes and I never make a move. Senior year comes by and I have a few classes with her. I'm a fairly shy guy when it comes to girls so the most I can say to her is "hi" and "how are you" and I'll compliment her from time to time and give her cookies that I made. The more I try to stop thinking about her, the more I do think about her. I was too scared to ask her out and the most I could do was ask her if she wanted to go to the park with me on the weekend, that never happened. So at the end of the year I felt I had to tell her but I was still too scared, so I wrote her a one page letter telling her how I felt, signed "a friend" and put it in her locker. To this day I still don't know if she got the letter or not or if she even knows how I feel. The last time I got to see her was on graduation, we hugged and we went our separte ways. I'm moving this wednesday (Aug1) to another state so I thought I'd give it one more shot. I called her monday and told her I was leaving and I wanted to see her again, she said maybe this saturday morning. I called her today to see if she can still go but she can't, she had family coming over and she was busy for the rest of the week, I can feel she wasnt lying and trying to get away from it. So anyways I wrote for too long and now I feel a bit heartbroken knowing that I wont see the girl of my dreams again. Thanks for all who read.