You're forgiven. Meh so you lied a bit. You admitted it and that's more than most of the fakers on this site will ever do. You've got a cam, you've got pics; make one that proves it's really you! You've got a webcam, the site has a cam room; go to it and prove it's really you! Alas, I digress. The important thing is you've become more familiar with yourself and your desires.