Or to have these tendencies as a gay man who would only ever want to please a man and his big dick. Is this so wrong? It has always been my personal mission to serve and to help others. (it's probably why I'm such a submissive bottom half the time) But I have to ask, Is this domesticated feeling I always have when I'm with someone a bad thing? Have I just not found that someone who enjoys this? My ex and I broke up because I couldn't find work in a broken economy and all I would do all day when I had time at home (other than job hunt online) was prepare his meals, clean our apartment and then give him a massage as soon as he walked through the door from work. All he wanted me for was money, because when I had money we were fine but as soon as I didn't, things went south..fast. Your thoughts?