i write this post not to stir up controversy with the female gender or with males of any orientation, but to share my observances of a number of women i have dated recently and some very dissapointing situations I have found myself in with females lately. i consider myself "10%" gay going no further than light touching really, but almost wonder if the situations i explain below are part of the reason i am 10% gay. that is, the lack of sexual satisfaction some women provide. my last relationship was with a 24 year old female who was very fun but also very immature. we began dating and hit it off quite well. by the third or fourth date she decided to spend the night. i began undressing her and she was fine with it. i am good with foreplay and began taking care of her. when it came her turn to reciprocate she touched me and then said that she could not do it. i respected her desicion and told her we could stop where we were at and the foreplay was just fine. but then she continued to touch, and stop, and touch, and stop, and say that she just didnt think she could do it. ok, fine i say. then she starts sucking my dick, and starts, and stops etc. needless to say i didnt get off, and dropped her off later with an incredible case of blue balls. we meet again and hook up and its the same story. eventually i learn i need to get really aroused quickly and ejaculate in 3 minutes or less or else im not going to get my end of the deal. later in the relationship we get to sex, and its the same story, i penetrate her and she decides she cant do it. finally, sick of it all, i end it. three weeks of dates and theres good chemistry, attraction, and good times, but the lack of ability to please me results in our eventual split. previous to her was a 32 year old female who i dated for almost six weeks before we decided to hop in the sack. our first time, she took her clothes off an almost immediately put them back on. she was almost afraid of her body and what she had to offer which was ridiculous because she was beautiful. i kept explaining to her there was nothing to be afraid of and she peeled off her clothing. we began to touch and play. i went down on her and she started giggling. she asked me to stop and i said ok fine. i played with her a little bit with my hands and she was giving me a hand job but stopped before i cam. ok, no problem, lets make more progress in our relationship and try again and things will be better, right? well, wrong. the pattern continues where she does not want to take off her clothing. when we do get her clothing off and begin on foreplay, she continues to laugh and giggle. she isnt even focused on whats going on sexually. talking with her later, i learn she has never had an orgasm. she doesnt relax when shes on her back and it all makes perfect sense. i try to direct her a little bit, but its worthless. she cant focus. when she gives me head, she goes less than one minute and stops. again, i end the relationship, and move on. my longest relationship was almost two years with a young lady who was a friend first and lover second. we began making love a month into our relationship. we did it 4-5 days a week. two months later, it was twice a week. i began to explain to her my needs and it would help temporarily but a week or two after our conversation things would be back to twice a week or less. by one year in, it was once a week. she thought everything was fine, i obviously, didnt. and it was during this relationship that i sort of realized, maybe i am 10% gay. because we were in a relationship, i felt uncomfortable actually having sex with another girl, i felt like that was cheating. but getting together with another guy and maybe switching hands while watching porn, thats not so bad right? so i hopped on craigslist one day, sent a couple emails, and just like that i was jerking off with another guy. to completion, i was completely drained. and then i zipped up, and left. these are three examples of relationships ive been in, where, more or less, ive actually found jacking off with a man more enjoyable than some of the sex i had with women. theres a lot of other factors involved independent of me and the women involved. for one i think men are more sexual, we obviously know what spots get us off, we typically are less damaged by one night things or stuff like that. and most women i think are typically a little more emotional than men. ive also had other relationships with very healthy sex. but when you read about the above stories, i cant help but think of a whole generation of men living nowadays with an unhealthy sex life with their female partners, and the alternative outlets we have today for our sexual experimentation by way of the internet. its such a wonderful thing that i can go out and get the satisfaction i need. with the click of my mouse, i can connect with a new friend regardless of orientation and get mutual benefit from it. its amazing that really because of the internet i have been able to explore with another man and see a different side of my sexuality than ever before. and while my preferred sexual partner will always be female, i have discovered that watching a little porn with a guy and jerking off is kinda fun.