Have you ever considered a bisexual MMF threesome? You sound like that you would be a perfect candidate to be the meat in the middle of the sandwich. Thanks for the reply.
Sounds like you tried everything, but you have to be true to yourself.Bottom only here. It's a bit weird because I'm bi and my longest lasting relationship was with a woman, but ever since I can remember starting thinking about sex the idea of penetrating with my penis made me very uncomfortable, a feeling that became even stronger when I started having sex with women. It's not that it was entirley unpleasent, I liked the feeling of cumming (but not even that much), I don't like what comes before, it give me some sort of sexual disphoria (I don't know if it's an actual thing - but that's what it describes it the best). When I realized I liked guys as well I thought that maybe that was the reason, that it'd be different with guys, but no, I tried it and it was the same. I actually was a bit depressed about it because at the time I rejected entirley the possibility of bottoming because it seemed too gay and too painfull, so I thought I would be never sexually satisfied. But eventually I started fantasizing about it, and the more I thought about it, the idea of being the receiver, being in the passive position became appealing to me, and more suited and natural for me. I started practicing, first by myself with toys and other object, then with guys and... well, ever since I broke up with my gf I'd sex mostly with men and only as a bottom - and I can say that I'm fully satisfied
Sounds like subconsciously you'd like to be versatile and really you might be afraid of losing control. That's what I get from the last sentence in your reply. Read it over,and tell me I'm wrong!! In my opinion you should try being the " meat" in sandwich,you know getting fucked while fucking someone else. You should try it,and if possible let me know how you felt about it. Thanks for your reply.
I might be a bit afraid of loosing control, but only in being just a bottom. When I'm a side, being the sub or the dom is never a problem and I like to alternate.
From what I've read in the site, you'll probably get addicted to it. Many after their first time want to do that exclusively. A lot of flip fucking fun!!
I think in the long term, this is exactly what I want. At least now, I know it's possible.
Don't lose hope. Keep looking with an open heart and mind , you'll find the right person for you.
Yes, we are both thankful for what we have together and try not to take it for granted especially after all these years.
